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Sunday, April 26, 2015
Saturday, April 25, 2015
Have you ever imagined a person who had been harbouring a lot of pain and resentment inside for so long and not been able to bring it all out? Well, that was me. I was one of those boys who was mistreated by his family since his early teenage years and was never allowed to have a life of his own. You can call me whatever you want, but one thing you cannot say about me, is that I am not honest. The only thing I've been meaning to do was to bring people to the knowledge of who my brother really was. Even though, I am not well-known or whatnot, I want the people around me to know the truth.
My monstrous sibling may have not count on the fact that I was going to try to expose him as to who he really was. Ever since I finished high-school I've had to deal with lots of abuse not only from him, but also from his partner. I do think that my mom could have made the horrible decisions she made due to the pressure from my brother as well. Nonetheless, am I not defending her either she was old enough to know better. When am I going to stop complaining about my life? Never. In fact, it is actually not complaining, but venting. Something that I do need to do so as to keep myself alive. Irrespective of what you may think by now, I do consider myself a resourceful writer that can help others with advice. Even so, you may ask yourselves, how can this guy pretend to help others when he can't even help himself? One word, experience. I know first-hand what it means to suffer in ways unimaginable owing to having your freedom taken away from you.
On the other hand, how can I overgrow this nightmare if I keep focusing to much in the past? When there is a will there is a way they say. Some can dish it out, but they cannot take it. My foes are some them. I know at this point I am not alone anymore. Hence, I won't have to go it alone. Neither, will I have to dilute my desire for justice. What I do have to do nonetheless, is to make a concerted effort so as to find both an outlet and a means of making a living that will guarantee me a healthy life. Again, by no means do I think that my kin's sins were originated as bad thoughts that came over them. I think there is something much deeper that made my sibling and company to do the horrible things they did to me. Besides, by no account do I believe I was precipitous in posting this. You see, I've been grinding through life for so long that I want to stop. I want to be the best at what I do no matter what.
Must my enemies have been astute so as to bring me down so many times. Still and all, with this renewed attitude I've got, I won't let my existence go to the dogs. Let me tell you one more thing though. Am I not a volatile person. At this point I mean every single word I say. It is not like I have to break the habit of grumbling about my past. The second I see justice taking place, can I assure you I will stop. Maybe, you cannot call me an innovative writer. Be that as it may, you should not take away the fact that I have had made a lot of progress since I first started writing either. Anyhow, when will I exactly start affecting change in my life?. Once I learn how to be on top of things I would say. Is it not easy to press ahead. Though, when the right chance shows up, I know I will be ready.
Monday, April 20, 2015
Friday, April 17, 2015
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Given that I´d posted yesterday, you might not have expected me to do so today. Nonetheless, I do curtail the time I spend writing when I get into a downer. Thus, since I am not exactly feeling like that right now, I´ll have a go at posting when under stress. Per contra, had I not been on this state, I wouldn´t have been writing anything whatsoever. Moreover, you might have noticed by now that all the topics I write about do get along. The reason for this, is that I cannot expunge my memories that easily. Hence, the need for me to build my stories on previous experiences.
Perhaps I´ll never be able to abate my depression the way I want to. Since the emotional wounds I´ve received have been countless. Even after engaging in several internecine family strifes, do I seek justice. Still and all, what springs to mind right now is getting my life sorted out. Given the fact that only a few friends uphold my beliefs, it makes it even harder for me to bear with the pain. It seems as if nigthmares sneered at me every night nonstop. By no means though do I expect to dumbfound you with false stories.
For the time being, do I have to prioritize either picking up my studies or getting around to finding a job. Have I got intermixed ideas about what to do. Can I not dawdle anymore. Neither can I afford to be prevailed on to make even more wrong decisions. Nothing seems to sweep me along anymore. I wouldn´t complain 24/7 about my kin having rubbing me off living my life had it not be true. Sadly, it is. Some might say that I could easily fix my life on the back of my efforts. Nonetheless, my untreated depression has prevented me from doing so. Thus far, I have not even been successful with doctors. Have I heard rumors knocking around that even hypnotism can cure a person who is clinacally depressed. Albeit, such methods have not arrived to Peru yet.
To conclude I´d say that I wish I had a good memory to chuckle about right now. Be that as it may, I feel more like hopping on the bandwagon of those suicidal folks who just end it all when hopeless. Granted that it might be mob mentality. However, it makes my head spin how I could possibly mend my situation. Ever since I was able to, have I been fastidious about improving my English. Notwithstanding, have I not accomplished much owing to that. People might still tell me that I can set it right. Not even an epiphany could help me now though.
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Most of my plans seem dead in the water. Even so, I refuse to concede defeat. Do I recognize that I have been an industrious student ever since I had the chance. I have always evinced a strong desire to learn new things. However, my poor social skills, and by extension all the aspects of my life that come with it have been affected due to this. To me, starting afresh means making a huge sacrifice. Hence, the need for me to get the necessary help so as not to derail from the right path. In order for me to implement a beneficial change in my life an ultimate effort must be required. May it be impossible for me to draw a veil over my past. Nonetheless, I must learn to deal with it.
Oftentimes, do I sense bad memories prowling around my mind as if they were hungry leech. My coloring leaves me when that happens. You see, I´ve always wanted to be an impeccable student and efficient worker. So that one day I could become a noted writer or educator. Still and all, my self-confidence was razed as if it were a burning house owing to my family´s abuse. It seems as though I had been suckered into doing whatever my kin wanted me to do taking only into account their selfish motives.
Even the few friends I would make my mom would scare off. Hence, I would be influenced into unfriending them myself. Unfortunately for me, I wasn´t a sturdy boy by nature. Once, I heard
a friend saying that each person on this planet is accountable for their actions. I do not concur with him whatsoever. Family pressure and traumatic experiences can be so damaging to a child´s personality that they might as well mark them for life.
The aftertaste of defeat is something I have experienced countless times. Consequently, the reason for me talking about this topic for the thousand time is not so as to bore you. Conversely though, my intention is to make you aware of the dangers of overprotection. How on Earth do parents expect their children to avail themselves of the opportunities that come their way if they never let them out of the nest? Even though my arguments are well founded, still I hear some sick people our there who think what they are doing is the best. If you expect your children to get through anything in life, let them live. You are going to regret it for the rest of your life if you raise your children to have qualms about everything they do. Ergo, the only way in which a person can fully mature is by being let have a chance to hit their stride in whatever they want to do. As they say: There is no substitute for experience, The more prepared you are in life the better.
Life can short-change us so many times. Therefore, we cannot sit on our hands and expect the world to be a better place. We must be tactful and seasoned in whatever we do. In order to get there though, a lot of work is required. Before I sum this up, I´d like to say that I don´t want to leave this world with compunctions owing to any of my actions. Have I bleated on numerous occasions about what fate had given me. Notwithstanding, may I still compile a list of the positive things that have happened to me during my lifetime. Even if they are not many. Will I have to make an effort so as to sift the negative experiences that I´ve encountered out of my list. Lastly, I´ll end this by saying the day I stop being contentious towards my family for what they did to me, will be the day I pass on.
Sunday, April 5, 2015
Just so that I do not want to get my English rusty, will I post something today. Irrespective of what people who have read my blog may think, do I still stick to everything I have said so far. Whether or not they believe me, I know I been through egregious experiences in my life. Notwithstanding, I still hear Friends telling me that my situation still might be considered a drop in the ocean compared to what other less fortunate ones must deal with.
That may be true. Nonetheless, it is also true that depression can become a sort of mental cancer if not dealt with with properly. Hence, later than sooner, did I decided to remedy my situation. Regardless of the fact that I do not yield to my kin´s decisions anymore, still do I keep an eternal scar in my spirit that will never fade away. Is it never too late to reach a turning point though? I hope not. Even though some people such as myself remain adamant in believing that there is no way a person can completely stop being hunted by any sort of childhood trauma. Still and all, I do believe there must be a way to get a out of the dead end of us find ourselves when hopelessness knocks our door.
We all wish there was a way so as to stop unwarranted injustice altogether. Even so, we live in a world in which the stupid and egoistic rule over the few smart and transparent ones that remain. Thus, double-minded individuals such as some I am familiar with. Moreover, in my case for instance, I do not expect the ones who have hurt me feel chastened and apologize whatsoever. Owing to the fact that I am being realistic. Evil people believe what they are doing is right so to speak. What is more, some of them even enjoy doing so cause they feel it empowers them. Regardless, of how smug they may feel, none of them will remain unpunished. If the divine law really does exist then it will take care of them, If not though, fate will surely remind them of their misdoings allowing authorities to crack down on them. For the time being, let us just hope for the best. At this point if history though, there is not much that could really reel us. I mean, after all the shocking events that with have witnessed.
Lastly, I would say that this topic will never get old. The bible states that we humans were created primarily to procreate, Even science has come to that conclusion as well. Be that as it may, after eye-witnessing the magnificent developments that the human race has come accomplish thus far, we can not say that we were created mainly to populate the Earth. Consequently, it is a good a thing I am not an unbending individual. On account of the aforesaid, I could in fact learn more than unbending thinkers. Therefore, when the times come for a young one to branch out, the least thing they want to remember is how much their folks used to coddle them. Instead, they want to start being know for something they are proud of. Something that from the first day they are out of the house, will take precedence over other trivial things. If you come to a realization that ultimately impacts your life in a good way, you have taken the first step towards success.
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