It was a rough day indeed. For some weeks now, have I experienced relapses of depression. In fact were they so strong that I could not even prevent myself from just lying in bed most of the day at times. Not to mention that I have received stern criticism from friends that do not understand my situation,

 

Was my treatment for depression cut short; due to me realizing that the professionals who were tending to me not committed to their work. Hence, have I resumed it not long ago. Irrespective of the treatment though, have I fallen into several relapses that were unbearable. Hence not only did this relapses retarded my recovery process, but they also hindered my usual composed behaviour.  Not to mention that they also put my future plans out of joint. That alone jangled my nerves.

 

Be that as it may, have I found a way to get my plans of the ground. Having said that, I acknowledged there was no other way to be blessed than laying down my requests to God. Did I realized also that no matter how much work I have put in so as to accomplish my goals. If I do not follow God's path I am lost. Thus, the reason why I failed in the past. Crisis can bring the best of you only if you fight alongside The lord.

 

Lastly, I would say that today made a commitment with God that I would not resort to evil spirits so as to seek help. I wish though, that at times I was hustled out of danger by my guardian angel. I also have to admit that for years was I mad at The lord for not having helped me whatsoever during my darkest times. Even so am I glad now I haven't pulled out of being a Christian. Needless to say that I hope to get a no frills one-way ticket to heaven in the foreseeable future.