Atheism Documentary

Not this last Sunday, but the one before I did not attend church due to not being able to sleep the night before. Not to mention that the feeling of coziness I felt the next day plus the urge to make up for the lost time slept deterred me from being a good Christian that day. Little did I know that the ramifications of that bad decision were going to weigh on me afterwards.

 

After I woke up I felt pretty guilty and decided to post a question an Yahoo Answers as I usually do when something goes wrong in my life. It ended up being counterproductive. Owing to the fact that I got the opposite answers to the ones I was expecting. For instance, one of the people who wrote said: "Well I am an atheist, which means I have the advantage of sleeping in every Sunday". The aforesaid answer took me back to when I myself was an atheist.

 

Not exactly was I thinking that I was contravening the law by being an atheist back then. Albeit, I do think there was something wrong about it. Not only was I out of my depth when it came to religious matters, but I realized something crucial. The only reason why I was an atheist was because I was following my brother's footsteps. Hence, had I been shackled by his beliefs  from becoming a Christian. When I finally became one I realized how important is to have your own identity.

 

Last but not least, will I say as follows: Even though, I had become an Atheist years ago on my kin's account, I learned how one has to say "no" sometimes. They could have dissuaded me at first not to follow Christ. Be that as it may, it was ultimately me who made the decision to become a member of a Christian church. Despite the fact of my faith being impoverished on account of some of my prayers not being answered, will I never regret being a  Christian. Anyhow,I was going to shoehorn I couple of big words here and there. Though I think that keeping this post succinct and to the point is wiser.

Post-traumatic stress disorder is more than flashbacks

Have I not been writing for over two weeks now. Hence, did I decide to get back in action after a well deserved hiatus. Not exactly am I going to keep my nose to the grindstone, and start writing until I wear myself out. Instead, little by little am I going to get into gear. Anyhow, this time around have I decided to talk about my own troubles with PTSD a little.

 

For those of you who have been reading my blog for a couple of years now, do you know about my troubled past. In a nutshell did you let other people tell me what to do more than once during my teenage years. Albeit, not even time has been able to heal those wounds I keep from the past. In fact owing a flashback did I lose my previous job a couple of months ago. Let's just say that after that I did not quite feel the same person for a while.

 

Despite the fact that I have not been tiptoeing around my problem. Do I know I could have done more to solve it. At times do  I even talk about how well I get along with my therapists, in the same breath though I keep bellyaching about not seeing much improvement. It is as though traumatic experiences from the past were embedded into my brain.

 

In review, would I say that even though I have not totally overcome my past experiences; do my current endeavours keep me busy enough so as to deal with them. Consequently, in place of transposing those fears I keep from the past into the work place, do I try to keep as level-headed as possible. What's more, next time I start locking horns with the past, do I intend to win.