Today, I´d like to talk about regrets. Every single one of us has regretted something that has caused a lot of pain at least once. Apart from the regrets we experience on a daily basis, the aforementioned ones are actually the ones that hurt us. Therefore, we have to look for ways to learn how to deal with them effectively. For instance, let me tell you a little a bit about my rough experience over the past few years. Right before I was finishing high school, I was bombarded with a large number of college ads. Colleges that mainly profit with students indecision.
I innocently picked out one of those. Gosh did I hated to make that decision. I do know that it is also true that my family had put a lot of pressure into me to get into school ASAP. Though, I also know that I was right off the bat clueless about what else to do at that time. I got into business school. It didn´t take me long however, to realize that I had not chosen the right program for myself. I dropped out after one semester. By that time, I was about to immigrate to Canada. My brother had made that possible after doing a lot of documentation for several years.I spent the last few months before my trip learning how to drive. I knew that I had an intermediate level of English which was not going allow me to handle myself perfectly over there. Though I decided to go on just having a taking a two month ESL program that didn´t help much. When I arrived in Toronto, On, I realized I was not ready to deal with rough situations over there.
I´m going to go off on a tangent for a little while. I come from a two children family, Nevertheless, my older brother is 17 years older than me. So that it´d been really hard to deal with him from the beginning, Besides, he is indeed a very manipulative person. It doesn´t mean I do think he does this all the time. Though he did it with myself almost all the time. He did not let me decide many times, and because of these I ended up messing up. Back to the my story, apart to having to stand my crazy brother while in Canada, I also had to struggle with all the difficulties that came along. I couldn´t find a single job, cause of the simple fact that I felt insecure. All I did was to study as Going from program after program. I withstood all these things one year. After that I realized the was nothing else to do but to go back to my home country. Back in Peru, I started from scratch, took a lot more ESL programs for another year. though this time it was different. This programs I was taking were a lot more advance and allowed me to teach as a trainee instructor in school and also to take the Michigan ECPE test. Of course I did passed this exam, after that I applied to a job in the same institution in which I had studied, I passed every single exam while going through the examination process. Until I saw that the person that was going to interview me was actually a Supervisor which I´d heard and seen before had a bad reputation and enjoyed maltreating new applicants.
I neglected to mention that I had previously got a temporary job at a hotel teaching English to the maintenance staff. I really thought this was my time to finally get what I deserved. However, I was wrong, I couldn´t accept the fact that I had to answer questions to this SOB, but I did. He unfortunately gave me a low score in the interview, which mean that on average I was out. I got really depressed I though everything was lost. Luckily for me, I got another opportunity. The following year, I got accepted into a College program for ESL teachers. I was finally going to study what I wanted. I also met wonderful people. And even though I´m still grappling to find an answer not to get depressed, I feel much better now. I´ve been giving private classes and attending conferences regarding Education. I know that my chance to get a good job will get pretty. I´d done volunteering for over two years before school this year, So I know what it looks like to help others. That´s in my opinion going to open me many doors in the foreseeable future. To sum up I´d like to tell you that if I could pick myself up many times after failure, you can do it as well.
I innocently picked out one of those. Gosh did I hated to make that decision. I do know that it is also true that my family had put a lot of pressure into me to get into school ASAP. Though, I also know that I was right off the bat clueless about what else to do at that time. I got into business school. It didn´t take me long however, to realize that I had not chosen the right program for myself. I dropped out after one semester. By that time, I was about to immigrate to Canada. My brother had made that possible after doing a lot of documentation for several years.I spent the last few months before my trip learning how to drive. I knew that I had an intermediate level of English which was not going allow me to handle myself perfectly over there. Though I decided to go on just having a taking a two month ESL program that didn´t help much. When I arrived in Toronto, On, I realized I was not ready to deal with rough situations over there.
I´m going to go off on a tangent for a little while. I come from a two children family, Nevertheless, my older brother is 17 years older than me. So that it´d been really hard to deal with him from the beginning, Besides, he is indeed a very manipulative person. It doesn´t mean I do think he does this all the time. Though he did it with myself almost all the time. He did not let me decide many times, and because of these I ended up messing up. Back to the my story, apart to having to stand my crazy brother while in Canada, I also had to struggle with all the difficulties that came along. I couldn´t find a single job, cause of the simple fact that I felt insecure. All I did was to study as Going from program after program. I withstood all these things one year. After that I realized the was nothing else to do but to go back to my home country. Back in Peru, I started from scratch, took a lot more ESL programs for another year. though this time it was different. This programs I was taking were a lot more advance and allowed me to teach as a trainee instructor in school and also to take the Michigan ECPE test. Of course I did passed this exam, after that I applied to a job in the same institution in which I had studied, I passed every single exam while going through the examination process. Until I saw that the person that was going to interview me was actually a Supervisor which I´d heard and seen before had a bad reputation and enjoyed maltreating new applicants.
I neglected to mention that I had previously got a temporary job at a hotel teaching English to the maintenance staff. I really thought this was my time to finally get what I deserved. However, I was wrong, I couldn´t accept the fact that I had to answer questions to this SOB, but I did. He unfortunately gave me a low score in the interview, which mean that on average I was out. I got really depressed I though everything was lost. Luckily for me, I got another opportunity. The following year, I got accepted into a College program for ESL teachers. I was finally going to study what I wanted. I also met wonderful people. And even though I´m still grappling to find an answer not to get depressed, I feel much better now. I´ve been giving private classes and attending conferences regarding Education. I know that my chance to get a good job will get pretty. I´d done volunteering for over two years before school this year, So I know what it looks like to help others. That´s in my opinion going to open me many doors in the foreseeable future. To sum up I´d like to tell you that if I could pick myself up many times after failure, you can do it as well.
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