Starting Over | Stephany Zoo | TEDxSuzhouWomen

For starters, did I want to apologize for yesterday's post. I really was torn up inside and wanted to quit writing altogether. By no means did I want to alarm anybody. Was I looking for someone's reassurance that could sweep away my pain. Even though I was coming across as a quitter, I was not exactly going against the grain. Have I already posted negative things on this blog before.

 

Still and all, it had been a while since I had done so. Not to mention that I cannot afford to make another false move. Or else, I could lose my job. For some time had I been waiting for a magnanimous soul to help me with my problems. Albeit, I am the one who has to be on top of my hardships.

 

Is it easy to slip back into depression. To stand back up again though is the complete opposite.

Was I told once that if I grabbed a piece of paper, wrote all the things that bothered me, and then rip it up, I would feel much better. Even so, they were wrong. Halfway down my recovery I relapsed terribly this year. Hence, the need for me to start over.

 

Do I not deprecate my achievements. Be that as it may, I admit my English is getting rustier by the minute. That makes me feel as if the ceiling of my home had caved in. Still and all, I have to overcome that feeling. By no means can the highlight of this year can be my depression. Have I failed to seize on every opportunity that has come my way. Thus, do I need to renew my self and not go down the path of despair anymore. My lifeboat rests on God.

MY SUICIDE STORY

Things have gone downhill. Is it extremely hard for me to wake up early every morning. Not to mention that my purpose in life is still unknown. I started this blog in 2013 expecting it to be a success. However, not even a soul takes the time to comment or subscribe to it.

 

Would I like a miracle to sweep away my negative thoughts. Still and all, that is impossible. Am I tired of praying to a probably non-existent god who takes pleasure in watching people suffer. By the way, I should probably not prune this post at all. Given the fact that I am making it concise. Even though I thought that kicking the habit of self-deprecation was going to be easy, it is not. Hence the need for me to give up.

 

Perhaps it is time for me to let it lie and stop writing for a while. The constant reoccurrences of my illness have prevented me from doing a better job. Fear looms over me. Albeit, I do not care anymore. If I stop and scrutinize my life, I could mostly see rejection after rejection and scenes of pain and suffering. It is not a matter of not being able to wake up early or being depressed anymore. My willingness to live has faded away.

 

Before boredom sets in among you, am I going to break this up. Not without thanking each one of you for having at least taken the time to read my posts. Despite the fact that, this is going to be my very last post. I encourage you to keep reading more seasoned bloggers, and keep learning as much as you can from material that can fill you up spiritually. So long.

Protecting Kids Gone Too Far?

It has been almost a week since I last posted. The reason for this is due to my depression coming back for a short time. Even though I try to overcome it, sometimes it is unbearable. Stripping off negative thoughts is not as easy as it seems. Hence, the reason for taking psychological treatments very seriously.

 

For years, has loneliness been one of my traits. Not because I wanted to. Conversely, owing to the fact that it was hard for me to fit in in different social groups. Hence, was it hard for me to break away from my shyness. For instance, the fact that my mother would drive me to school until I was in high school was utterly outrageous. Have I not written the aforesaid statement for you to make fun of me. Still and all, it seems appropriate to me for you to know the hardships I had to go through so as to gain my independence.

 

You know at this point where this post is going. Ergo, am I going to keep on talking about overprotection. Something that certainly boosts dependence among children. Laying down ground rules and grounding your children is seems perfectly OK. Even so, overprotecting them to the point of not letting them go to school alone by the time their are teens seems outrageous. An illustration for this would be an instance when I was trying to go to my English school after my regular classes by the time I was 15 and my mom still wanted to collect me.

 

Last but not least. am I glad that I keep this blog sort of secretly. I would not want people to find out that this 23 year old blogger used to be a mama's boy. Now though, am I a rookie English teacher trying to survive in the world. Be that as it may, do I still need  some seasoned educators to show me the ropes on this profession. Not to mention that number of aspects I have to consider before delivering a good class for children makes my head spin.

5 techniques to speak any language | Sid Efromovich | TEDxUpperEastSide

First of all, did I want to express my deepest sympathies and,  offer my condolences  to the families of the hundreds of casualties left after the terrorist attacks in Paris. No excuse whatsoever justifies the use of such violence so as to make a point. Having been the most affected areas Saint Denis, where a soccer game was taking place; and Bataclan, where a rock concert was being held. Anyhow, let us just hope that the violence starts tapering off as more and more safety measures are taken by the authorities.

 

Anyhow, today I wanted to talk about how important it for language learners to interact with native speakers when learning a second language. For instance, in my case, only a few times do I hesitate to strike up a conversation with a tourist. Of course sometimes, one needs to momentarily scrutinize the people you are going to speak to. Albeit, is it easier when one joins conversation clubs and social gatherings where one can speak the target language.

 

The more you practice, the easier it gets to understand the target language. Still and all, getting the ears used to a new language is not always easy. Hence, listening to music and watching movies in the desired language is always helpful. Despite the fact that nothing can replace human interaction, hands-on experiences are not always at hand. For people who do not live in the country where the target language is spoken that is.

 

Lastly, I would say that it takes years of practice to master a language. Be that as it may, the satisfaction you get from it is quite rewarding. Thus, do not get discouraged next time you are taking a up a second or even a third language, and do not see results straight away. I gush with emotion almost every time someone praises me for my English . It could be you next time. Consequently, do not get asleep at the wheel on your next English (or whatever language you are learning) class.

When Does A Person Become An Adult?

This is the first post I am writing as a 23 year old. You see, I turned 23 yesterday;  and even though my birthday did not turned out exactly as expected, I really enjoyed the company of good friends and of course their good wishes. What I wanted to talk today was early adulthood and what it entails to become an adult.

 

Irrespective of what has happened to me in the past, I can say I have moved forward. Am I not roving the streets of Lima anymore looking for a job. Not to mention that I am also more emotionally stable. Albeit, what do I need to accomplish next so as to feel 100% mature? Well it is hard to say. Perhaps the day I stop rambling when I am in front of a pretty girl will be the day I fully consider myself an adult.

 

In all seriousness though, being an adult does not only encompasses paying bills or forming a family. Sometimes, having the desire to help others and being able to give sound advice is enough. However, I am not saying that it should end there, not by a long shot. The more we learn about almost anything, the more prepared we are going to be in the future to lead a family and whatnot.

 

Last, but not least  the fact that we make sure we are not misusing our time when we are teenagers, and try to swat away negative thoughts is crucial. Youngsters usually go by their feelings, and therein lies the core of the problem. To wrap this up, I would say that I am going to bolster my own confidence by trying to be more assertive. In order for that to happen though, I am going to have to pour it on.

How to overcome shyness

It seems as though I have been running on empty after so many posts. Even so, I also had put my plan to post this on the back burner. Thereby, making me forget about it altogether. Still and all, I decided to tackle the issue of lack of confidence this afternoon.

 

For years have fallen victim of my own insecurity. Not being able to strike up conversations with girls from other classrooms when I was in high school for instance. Even though, I managed to make a couple of good friends; I know I could have made a lot more had it not been for this social anxiety.

I surmise, most children develop it due to their upbringing. For instance, since I was very overprotected as a child, it was really hard for me to develop social skills once I became a teen.

 

On the other hand, peer pressure plays a crucial part in the social development of a child. Albeit, and to illustrate the aforesaid point with my own experience; I develop a highly conscious and moral mind-set due to my overprotection. Hence, I was able to reject offers from strangers to do drugs, alcohol, and all that jazz. Not to mention I overdid it a little. What I mean by this is that I exaggerated in my role of goody-two-shoes.

 

Lastly, I would say that I will share a more extensive explanation in the video I am going to post about this regard. In spite of being unlikely, it is possible to change your patterns of behaviour as a young adult. For instance, people with depression who constantly find themselves in a trough can still deal with the problem successfully if the set their minds to it. Without medicating the issue away of course. By the same token people who get easily riled up can also solve their issue more effectively in their late teenage years and early adult years.