Things have gone downhill. Is it extremely hard for me to wake up early every morning. Not to mention that my purpose in life is still unknown. I started this blog in 2013 expecting it to be a success. However, not even a soul takes the time to comment or subscribe to it.

 

Would I like a miracle to sweep away my negative thoughts. Still and all, that is impossible. Am I tired of praying to a probably non-existent god who takes pleasure in watching people suffer. By the way, I should probably not prune this post at all. Given the fact that I am making it concise. Even though I thought that kicking the habit of self-deprecation was going to be easy, it is not. Hence the need for me to give up.

 

Perhaps it is time for me to let it lie and stop writing for a while. The constant reoccurrences of my illness have prevented me from doing a better job. Fear looms over me. Albeit, I do not care anymore. If I stop and scrutinize my life, I could mostly see rejection after rejection and scenes of pain and suffering. It is not a matter of not being able to wake up early or being depressed anymore. My willingness to live has faded away.

 

Before boredom sets in among you, am I going to break this up. Not without thanking each one of you for having at least taken the time to read my posts. Despite the fact that, this is going to be my very last post. I encourage you to keep reading more seasoned bloggers, and keep learning as much as you can from material that can fill you up spiritually. So long.