For starters, did I want to apologize for yesterday's post. I really was torn up inside and wanted to quit writing altogether. By no means did I want to alarm anybody. Was I looking for someone's reassurance that could sweep away my pain. Even though I was coming across as a quitter, I was not exactly going against the grain. Have I already posted negative things on this blog before.

 

Still and all, it had been a while since I had done so. Not to mention that I cannot afford to make another false move. Or else, I could lose my job. For some time had I been waiting for a magnanimous soul to help me with my problems. Albeit, I am the one who has to be on top of my hardships.

 

Is it easy to slip back into depression. To stand back up again though is the complete opposite.

Was I told once that if I grabbed a piece of paper, wrote all the things that bothered me, and then rip it up, I would feel much better. Even so, they were wrong. Halfway down my recovery I relapsed terribly this year. Hence, the need for me to start over.

 

Do I not deprecate my achievements. Be that as it may, I admit my English is getting rustier by the minute. That makes me feel as if the ceiling of my home had caved in. Still and all, I have to overcome that feeling. By no means can the highlight of this year can be my depression. Have I failed to seize on every opportunity that has come my way. Thus, do I need to renew my self and not go down the path of despair anymore. My lifeboat rests on God.