Get back to work advice

Has it been almost to weeks since I last posted. Time goes by so quickly and I was feeling guilty not to write a post for so long.  Anyhow, have I already told you that little bit more than two weeks ago I got my job back after a while. To be honest I was starting to think things were going to grind to a halt if I did not get it back. Ever since then not much has transpired besides my usual routine.

 

Getting back my job not only helped me realize that there is always hope no matter what, but it also made me realize how important it is to take your responsibilities more seriously. What  I mean by that is that I was actually behaving in an unreasonable way due to not wanting take on any class whatsoever. During that time my neglect towards work on account of not being able to get over a negative flashback was reprehensible. Needless to say I was holding out for a better job offer to no avail.

 

Nevertheless do I have a more positive mind-set at this point. No longer am I estranging myself from my priorities. This time, am I focusing more on what is most important. Still and all, I do not feel on top of things quite yet. In order for that to happen will I have to rev up my energy levels and organize myself a little more.

 

To round this post out, I would say as follows: Irrespective of what might have happened in the past, am I now on the right track. Teaching has become my bread and butter. Thus, people might tell me that I should further my education by finishing up my degree. Be that as it may, I do not feel quite ready to do so just yet. I may even start all over again. That is the reason why I feel quite ambivalent about the aforesaid statement. Not to mention that it is also quite irksome to think about that. 

PS. Next time will I try to come up with something new.

Courage to fail

Recently did I get back on track by getting my job back after a long while. Even though I was rusty and worried (filled with trepidation), I knew that where the rubber met the road, I had to be ready. Thus, I shut down my fears and confronted the situation as best as I could. What should I have done to overcome this in the first place though?

 

By making light of the problem, I was not solving it either. Hence, the need to find a reasonable way to deal with the matter at hand as  effective as possible. Might, chalk up my absence from work to fear and neglect. Be that as it may, identifying the problem does not always help solving it. What does though?

 

There is such a term called "faulty corvallis", which are intense fears that develop as we grow up.

For instance social anxiety might be one of them, fear of failure could be another. However, there is something we had not tackled before. For most people, failure equals bad, but giving up is much worse. I experienced that first hand myself. There is no telling how much you can miss out on if you give up doing something so soon.

 

To close things out, I would say that I've almost all my life refuted people saying that you can learn something from failure. To me failure was something that could bring you to your knees. Was I dead wrong though. Had it not been for my failures, I would have not learn the things I know now. Even though I would have ended up better off without making some of those mistakes, were they so impactful that they helped anyway.