Can I not believe whatsoever what I have done this week yet. Notwithstanding, I am trying to move on now. You see I let my negative thoughts take over for some reason. Thus, I have decided that from hereon in, I will do my best to keep my mind occupied. I must work out a way of doing it. Truth be told, I do not actually do what I say all the time. I am a natural procrastinator who thinks he has a lot of time ahead of him. Even though I have been through the mil this week, have I learned something important. Never should you allow hatred or negative energy to control. Let us get something straight though. By no means am I a bad person. However, I am the kind of folk who gets sick by harboring negative thoughts for long periods of time. Hence, the need for me to find not only a fulfilling activity, but one that can take my mind off things once in a while. What lies behind my feelings may be me constantly pondering over the past. Still and all, have I know learned how precious life is and am willing to fight for achieving my goals from now on.

 

A good friend told me I should start writing in paragraphs, I had never thought of it, since I was trying to mimic the grade 12 English writing style. Anyhow, do I want my future achievements silence all the underestimating predictions some of the people who know me may have about me.

Nonetheless, I do not exactly want everyone marveling at my courage if life gives my the chance to ultimately be successful. Nonetheless, earning respect is my long-life goal. For starters, am I going to have to stop having a parrochial way of thinking. If I at some point of my life start realizing how important it is to start from the bottom, will accomplish a lot more tan what have already. I ´must learn to pay my dues before I want to start running staff myself. Let me clear up though that throughout my entire life, I have put all my eggs in one basket. Consequently, getting myself depressed after not accomplishing the desired goal. Do I have to change that pattern for my own sake. Errors come in all shapes and forms. Nonetheless, whether or not we make them is up to us.

 

The same way a priest successfully administers the sacraments to the flock, I must learn to get to the point in which I can put myself in public without hesitation. Still do I want to become an ESL teacher. Howbeit, it is going to take some time for me to realize that things are not as complicated as we think they are. I draw on my personal experiences so as to come up with something to write. Be that as it may, if I miss out on many things due to my negativity, there won´t be much to write about either. For now, I just hope God can forgive me and allow me to continue. Will I not improve in leaps and bounds. Nonetheless, I will try to make as much progress as I can, instead of chewing myself out that is.

 

Lastly, I would say that I will also post a video on procrastination so as to get an idea about what not to do. I have to create my own road-map for success. Even so, is it not going to be easy. Hence, do I need a few more lucky strikes in order to reinforce my sense of hope. I must confess though a last thing that apart from being wedded to English, am I also wedded to my phone. Therefor, my next post will be about how we can get ourselves away from our devices. That would be all, I am going to be more breve from now on. Not exactly lionhearted, but assertive enough to get the things I need to follow through with my goals.