Still do I need to come to terms with the present. From now on, I don´t want any successful folk to lord it over me that they have accomplished something more than I have. Therefore, I will have to exert myself so as to accomplish my ultimate goals. Nonetheless, cutting my ties with the past seems yet impossible.

First off all, I´ll need to chip off my personality´s rough edges. Am I on the way now though. Nonetheless, getting rid of self-deprecation is not easy task. Thus, getting all my ducks in a row before I embark on a journey crowded with challenges, I will need to stabilize myself once and for all. Besides, I need to find an environment conducive to my interests and try to work on them as much as I can. Still and all, not only do I have to focus on that, but on becoming a more independent person as well. I cannot be a zealous student 24/7. That would drive me nuts. Hence, the need for me to find a balance between my studies and leisure. I must learn to forgive my parents having abdicated their responsibilities towards me. In order to acquire an equable nature, I am going to have to forgive myself and avert having  a hypersensitive state of mind. Irrespective of how hard it will be for me to get my act together, I will have to do it. My contingency plan towards failure will be work has hard as I can to prevent it.

By no means can I get caught up in the past. I need to follow through with what I have started off. Not to mention, that the better I feel, the better I will be able to perform. Not only do I want to get myself up to speed with people who already have some working experience on my field, but I also want to be able to feel comfortable with myself for a change. High-flying folks did not get to where they are now overnight. I know that. Though, if I ever want to get to the point in which I am exalted for my accomplishments, I have to start small. The past can wear away at us only if we let it. Be that as it may, by keeping ourselves busy we do not allow negative thoughts to inflict harm on our health. Just like we wash over criticism sometimes, we must learn to brush off past negative experiences that might hunt us. The only way to combat failure is by doing something. Only I know whether or not I will be able to consummate my endeavors.

Lastly, I must learn to roll back my insecurities, and prevent others from taking away from my achievements. "You had better do this". "You had better do that". No one should tell me what to do from hereon in.