Do I look like a cat on a hot tin roof right now. For starters, was I not able to go to work this morning. At six am, did I take a run as usual. All of a sudden, a very convincing flashback took over my mind and forced me to have to call in sick afterwards. It seems as though my vehement feelings of despair prevented me from doing the right thing. In the following post will I be talking about how to combat negative thoughts from a personal point of view.

 

Is it still feasible for me to get better. Albeit, a little unlikely. Not that I want to be bearer of bad news. Though, as time passes by it seems more complicated for me to wash my hair off my problems.

Do I know that I have to nip my issues in the bud before I get flung out of work. Notwithstanding, do I also have to walk on eggshells after having been absent for a while at work. Not to mention, that my indiscreet remarks against my workplace  to one of the parents of my students almost damaged my reputation.

 

Do I have to put things on a balance and get my priorities straight. Have I been regarding this iffy job I am in as more important than my health. Thus, it all backfired. Taking meds is part and parcel of following a treatment. Albeit, both the medicine and the psychotherapy go hand in hand. Moreover, to answer my initial question and not to fudge the reason why I wrote this post in the first place let me say as follows: The sooner I keep up with the treatment and keep my mind busy, the faster will things fall into place.

 

Hence, in order not to be in a dip all the time, will I have to make a huge effort. Perhaps I cannot change my past. Not to mention that I ascribe my failures to my kin's manipulation. Though, what I can do is work towards a better future. Exactly how I will heal myself still remains a grey area. Be that as it may, what I know is that I cannot believe in Sod's law for now.