Things could have not been worse this week. I went from having one of the classes I was going to teach cancelled, to falling out and having a huge fight with a close friend. In the following post, am I going to talk about how to overcome guilt and past mistakes.

 

To be honest though, having been forced to make the wrong decisions is not the same as making mistakes yourself. The aforesaid happened to me. Instead of having got a slap in the wrist for mistakenly having trusted my kin, did I get severe punishment. Not only by having been forced to forgo the simple pleasures of life, but also by being prevented from making my own choices regarding career path and many other things.

 

Having listened to my brother and mother's advice has certainly scuppered my chances to get an acceptable job and a decent education. Albeit, am I also partly to blame due to not having been strong enough so as to oppose them. Hence, allowing their manipulation to recur time after time. Owing to the traumas I developed thanks to overprotection and psychological abuse, I wasn't able to find a job for a long time for instance, even when I came back to Peru.

 

Does my mood oscillate between hope and despair. Even though I have a amounted to something a little bit meaningful, has it taken me so long that it does not really matter anymore. Have I put foot in it by trusting my family. I indeed have. Though,  that does not mean I have to keep beating myself up over it. Sitting in regret is only going to make me feel worse. To sum it all up, do I need to quell my fears about the past and move on once and for all.