How to Stop Procrastinating

One more year has gone by in which I do not go to a Halloween party, nor did I join that religion I was talking about the other day. It seems as if I never plan the stuff I am going to do in the future. We all know that only your actions are the ones that provoke results. Nonetheless I have not been following the aforesaid line myself. By pulling out of my responsibilities and being afraid have I only aggravate my situation. Despite the fact that I have always been sort of tongue-tied to be honest, at least I had a drive to carry on before. Nonetheless, it seems as if that drive is long gone. I unfortunately adhered to the idea that I my English was not good enough and so I stopped looking for opportunities and trying to progress. I mean, even my mom has interceded on behalf of myself with the dean of my school so as to help me out. Nonetheless, some of the things I have experienced have depressed me to the point of not being able to think straight. Not to mention that I had been storing up my worries for so long before I started having nervous breakdowns. I realize now that I had saturated myself with negative thoughts. Thus, did I started to get sicker and sicker. Besides, it is a penance to do something only out of obligation. Ergo, perhaps going to a school in which most of the courses are in Spanish was not such a good idea for me after all, Nonetheless, it is also true that I lost several chances to go to conferences and whatnot due to my negativeness.  Hence, I have dashed my own hopes by behaving the way I have. If only I could rewind my life and wise up. The latter is possible though. Who has not wished for something miraculous to happen? Well I am one of them right now. Moreover, the fact that I have made an inordinate amount of mistakes makes me try to forget them. Irrespective of what has happened to me thus far I still think I can make up my mind and try to man up for a change. It all comes down to being honest with myself and the ones who surround me. Perhaps my family steered me to the wrong path in the past. Still and all, ever since I became an adult it has been my responsibility to face up to my actions. Therefore, even though I may not have done the best job taking care of myself, I at least made some decisions. Should start setting up an schedule and some plans if I ever want to snap out of this depression for real. Either that or I can start thinking on scrubbing down floors for a living. Not that there is anything wrong with that. Still and all, the problem with me is that I think too much about things and never start doing anything. Regardless of all the support from friends I got, I backslided into having a negative attitude.  Perhaps I was seeing pink elephants when I though that my dreams were going to come true was because I wanted them to . Notwithstanding it comforts me to keep dreaming stuff away sometimes. All in all, I hope I can finally decide wisely for once in my life and stop trying to hide from my problems. By the way it is axiomatic to say that only way in which my doubts can fall away is if I actually start making things happen. I just wanted to say that last remark and I will be making a list  of the things I have not got the chance to do yet before my birthday which falls on Wednesday.

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Am I already regretting the fact that I have shirked my duties. However, I do not do a thing to solve them either. I mean I have founded a way around the rules by avoiding class. To be honest, I have no idea why I have not listened to a single piece of advice I have been given at all. How could my plans ever have materialized if I do not lift a finger to accomplish them?  I just hope not have exhausted all my chances. Moreover, I cannot find a reason for me behaving this way. Not to mention, now I have not the foggiest idea what to do next. Fear steals over my body. That is on account of the fact that I feel guilty for not having been responsible whatsoever. People may think anything has a solution. Nonetheless, I for one think my situation. Moreover, I could not be more muddle-headed right now.

Not to mention that I do not realize how much I am missing out on. Lots of people have tried to help me out. Be that as it may, far from thinking straight and  remaining hard-headed, I have been stubborn enough so as not to apply the advice I had been given. Not only was I being self-willed, but also I was hurting myself by cloistering inside my room. Am I the kind of person who gives out advice to people but do not do any of the things I suggest at all.  I mean if I were to stop and think for moment about the stuff that I do before actually doing it, I perhaps would not be on this situation. Do I realize now I gave up so easily without a fight. Even so, I will keep attending the classes I think will be convenient for me to attend. Besides, I have to act before it is to late.  Dreaming about making a run at being successful is one thing; accomplishing though is something totally different. Irrespective of what I have done so far, I should keep living not for me, but for my family.  Being extremely shy and a little self-willed has stopped me from achieving so much. However, it does not hurt to be happy. Ergo, I will try to be that way despite all I have done. Regaining my confidence will not be an easy task. Still and all, if I do not start now, it maybe too hard tomorrow.  How easy it is to saunter down the street and try to look for a friend or whatnot. Negative thoughts are a dangerous thing. Bringing up the rear, I will end this writing by encouraging you to do what I never did during my life- time... believe in yourself.

Still have I been doing idiocies. Nonetheless, at least know do I realize the gravity of my actions. All my progress has been blighted by insecurities. Besides, since this platfrom is the only means by which I voice my thoughts, I get really anxious for not actually talking to people. What is the point of having a flair for language is I do not open my mouth?. Anyhow, I know now that at no point in the foreseeable future will I end up intoxicated by success. In fact, on account of the recent mistakes I have made, I even doubt I am going to be able to stay at school much longer. Straight from the shoulder, I have let my depression hold me back. Despite this, I still am willing to at least try. A new vista opening up for me seems impossible. I mean, if I were to add up the number of times I have avoided school plus the amount of times I have flounces out of class, I would be crazy by now. To think that just a few months ago, I would be coruscating with delight. Notwithstanding now I spend most of the time pinpointing my past errors. Instead of trying to change, I keep trying to get a fix on why I behaved as I did. Ergo, in lieu is watching my life go by in dejection, I must stop thinking. My own action have diluted my confidence. Paying scant attention to your own future can bring you detrimental consequences.Wagging my head at my own actions will only make me waste even more time. How much would I wish to be the kind of person who does things straight out. Be that as it may, I still have a long way to go. With that, a lot of work has to be done by me if I even want progress. Moreover, I feel as if there is only a husk lest of my former self. Sweeping away my fears will not be easy. However if I keep lazying around they will get stronger. Lost of flimsy excuses I could give for my recent misbehavior. Still and all, I cannot hide the fact that now I am paying my dues. Further, the only thing left for me to do is to dissipate my own anger and move on. Why should I be mad at myself for romping around in my dreams and not living my actual life? It pains me to realize know how much time I have squandered. Not only do I have to learn how to compose myself, but also to be more responsible. I have fallen behind at school so badly that I do not know what to do to remedy my situation. How am I supposed to become the anchor of my kin at some point in the future if I do not even have the courage to face up to my responsibilities? For years I had been balked of my freedom. Even so, I do not how to use it now that I have it. My actions should home in on my goals. Notwithstanding, that is not the case. Not that I should be more audacious, but indeed less foolish. All in all, have I ruined my reputation. Thus, I must do something to wind up being more of a comedian and diligent student. Let us just hope that this time I am able to walk the walk instead of only talking the talk. My fate relies on the verisimilitude of the aforesaid words.

To be honest, I thought I was not going to write down a single word anymore. For I have sinned deeply towards myself.  At some point did I optimize my talent for languages, but only at a tiny extent. You see since I have never been that social, I have had a lot of trouble practicing my English.

Not to mention that now more than ever, it is impossible for me to wipe out the past. Owing to the fact that I had been laying up problems for myself. Of course I perfectly do realize the consequences of my absences to school. Nonetheless, that did not prevent me from doing wrong. On account of this, I came across the following religious quote: Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother´s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye. Intermittently do I begin to understand that I was in fact behaving that way. Overcoming depression encompasses a lot of will power. Notwithstanding, I was prolonging it as much as I could. Neither had I exhausted all the possibilities to improve my health. People have had enough of me playing victim. Have I had enough times to take the reins of my life. Nonetheless, I feel as if a demon had extruded my confidence right out of my soul. Until when should I remain this way? Do I want to keep making myself gaunt? Do I really want to get winded next time I jog? If I ever? Going back to what I said earlier, how do I expect to advance my English knowledge if I don´t even show up at class? Should I part company with my silliness once in for all. What is more, I should stop scrutinizing my past. Moreover, I have to learn not to make my problems intractable. Do I really wish there was a panacea to solve all my problems. Such as a genie granting me time travel to the past so as to correct all my mistakes. As impractical as the aforesaid statement might sound, it is worth to believe for me if it is going to keep me alive. Neither do I know whether or not there is ever going to be a way to accomplish time travel nor do I know if there is a god. Even so, It is not as if there were a dearth of options for me to progress. Anyhow if I do not want to end up having a single more regret as I get on in years, should I start getting myself into gear and stop looking back. For how much longer should I behave as if I were long in the tooth for?

Intermittently, do I realize I had been wrong in thinking that problems cannot be solve. Provided that I had started acting upon my tasks, would I have solved my situation already. Should I not exactly crusade against what I believe to be wrong all the time. Nonetheless, it would help for me to be more assertive so as not to fall in the error of being a high-strung individual. Besides, tautening your mind with worries is not a good idea. Is it so hard for me to wipe the slate clean with my past and move on. Perhaps by becoming more charismatic with my peers, could I little by little forget about the past. You see, it is easy for me to relay information to people on a written form. Nonetheless, since I have become more cloistered than ever, it is even harder for me to assert myself. However, by flaying myself all the time, I only worsen my health. If I want to make a passable performance at school, I should be more active and less truculent. Even though I am not that way, I tend to sometimes misbehave out of frustration towards my parents. Might it be the core of my suffering that I cannot stomach having moved out once more? Everyone knows that issues accrue when you procrastinate the way I have so far. Anyway, I could apportion the blame for my current health state to my kin. Notwithstanding, would I not accomplish much by doing so. I will be signing off for now, with the hopes of whipping my depression and send it out of commission.