Am I already regretting the fact that I have shirked my duties. However, I do not do a thing to solve them either. I mean I have founded a way around the rules by avoiding class. To be honest, I have no idea why I have not listened to a single piece of advice I have been given at all. How could my plans ever have materialized if I do not lift a finger to accomplish them?  I just hope not have exhausted all my chances. Moreover, I cannot find a reason for me behaving this way. Not to mention, now I have not the foggiest idea what to do next. Fear steals over my body. That is on account of the fact that I feel guilty for not having been responsible whatsoever. People may think anything has a solution. Nonetheless, I for one think my situation. Moreover, I could not be more muddle-headed right now.

Not to mention that I do not realize how much I am missing out on. Lots of people have tried to help me out. Be that as it may, far from thinking straight and  remaining hard-headed, I have been stubborn enough so as not to apply the advice I had been given. Not only was I being self-willed, but also I was hurting myself by cloistering inside my room. Am I the kind of person who gives out advice to people but do not do any of the things I suggest at all.  I mean if I were to stop and think for moment about the stuff that I do before actually doing it, I perhaps would not be on this situation. Do I realize now I gave up so easily without a fight. Even so, I will keep attending the classes I think will be convenient for me to attend. Besides, I have to act before it is to late.  Dreaming about making a run at being successful is one thing; accomplishing though is something totally different. Irrespective of what I have done so far, I should keep living not for me, but for my family.  Being extremely shy and a little self-willed has stopped me from achieving so much. However, it does not hurt to be happy. Ergo, I will try to be that way despite all I have done. Regaining my confidence will not be an easy task. Still and all, if I do not start now, it maybe too hard tomorrow.  How easy it is to saunter down the street and try to look for a friend or whatnot. Negative thoughts are a dangerous thing. Bringing up the rear, I will end this writing by encouraging you to do what I never did during my life- time... believe in yourself.