My alacrity for life seems to have abandoned me. Despite the fact I hitherto have relinquished my dreams due to accepting what my kin told me to do, there still might be a way for me to escape from this situation. Have I given my undivided attention to learning that it seems unfair to me that not a single person was willing to help me out at the time that I needed it the most. To be more specific regarding jobs mostly. Even though I had been magnanimous until now with those who ruined my existence, I am not going to accept any more humiliations. What is the point of being an assiduous student if none of the efforts you made paid off in the end?. Perhaps I should have tried harder. Then again fair has always hindered my progress. I believe my low self-regard has been the reason for all my failures. Still and all, I will try to overcome this life-long curse even if it takes me forever.It dumbfounds me to realize how much time I have wasted and where I am now. Besides, as hard as it may to be to find an answer to my worries, I had better hustle up. At this point it impossible to undo the pain I have endured hitherto. Notwithstanding, I can try my best to forget. Considering the fact that my health is on the line. Anyhow, I just hope this writing is not full of contrivances. Moreover, if I simmer down I must be able to pull off  writing this post as natural as possible. By the way, back to my story, I only have left to say that my time is running out and I do not have anybody to pass the buck to. Therefore, can I not discount any chance of recovery. Too much inertia can lead to overkill. Thus, I should throw off this feeling as soon as possible. Not to mention I might as well fall short of opportunities if I do not hurry. Lastly, I would say that irrespective of the fact that most of the people I have encountered in the past have been callous, I should concentrate on the few people that I have met who have not been that way.