What is it really that makes you unhappy?. Well, in fact thoughts are what accomplish that.  Especially the ubiquitous thoughts about the bad experiences you had in the past. Besides, if you get stuck in the past, you cannot advance through life. Thus, if you cannot advance through life, it means you still are stuck in the past.

It is indeed a catch 22 situation. Still do I want to kick the habit of immersing myself negativity. Do I try not to clutter my mind with negative thoughts. In fact it is scientifically proven that is you force yourself to feel bad, you in fact will imperil your health. By engaging yourself in constant fits of rage and anxiety you cannot solve anything. Further, if you want to resurface a memory, it had better be a pleasant one.

To reiterate what I just said, you may want to go light on your past thoughts. If you think of all the times you "zigged" when you should have "zagged", you will get frustrated. Thoughts are so powerful that most of them can mass inside your head at once and make you feel bad. It seems to me though, that I have been talking too much and not been acting. You see, it is not enough to have a fervent belief. Even though I may never be able to zip into the past, it does not mean I cannot still be happy.

No matter how many people try to heap praise on me. If I do not believe what they say to me, it will amount to nothing. Life is full of intricacies as it is to add up even more to it. Hence,  I must do my best to restore myself back to full health. The reason why I have made little headway in my recovery is because I wanted to.  Should I must reach a decision to snap out of this situation once and for all. Should I keep kicking the can down the road like politicians do? I guess not.