Sometimes people think one joins a religion just because they have let missionaries proselytize them into their creed. Still and all, only a few who are smarter than average understand the need to join any kind of religion. Being part of a religious organization not only can help those with low self-esteem who struggle in life, but also those who want to sate their desire to learn a little a bit about everything, such as myself. Of course my kin never understood any of those reasons. Besides, did I have to entreat them to understand my position.
Even though their realization that I was in fact right was belated, I am glad that at least they now get it. Moreover, may I be close to being an antipode to the average 21 year old. Notwithstanding, it is owing to the fact that I grew up in a sheltered environment I guess. Be that as it may, I am old enough to call the shots now. Am I just waiting to fully recover from this depression and get back on track.
As much as I am desirous to get into a time machine and do over all the idiocies I have done so far, I now that is humanly impossible. Thus, my need to start doing things right from now on. Unwonted decisions due to anxiety can lead you to bad results. However, my passion for learning has not betrayed me. Ever since my late adolescence, I have tried to get hold of as many chunks of knowledge from here and there I could have gathered. Nonetheless, I still believe I could have sprung a surprise by becoming a young prolific bilingual writer had I made different decisions. Not that I cannot become one now. Even so, it would be a lot harder to accomplish it for me considering what I have been doing lately.
Not only would I have to rep up, but I would also have to make frequent mental exertions to achieve my ultimate goal. Besides, even if I were lucky enough to finally get where I want to, I still would be haunted by my regrets of untimely learning. Hence, they are something I will have to live with anyway. Moreover, no contrivance is going to help me reach my goals quicker. However old I am now is still early enough to accomplish them. Despite the fact that I myself do not believe the aforesaid words, they are still true. It seems as though nothing will subvert my beliefs, as impolitic as some of them may be considered.
Even though their realization that I was in fact right was belated, I am glad that at least they now get it. Moreover, may I be close to being an antipode to the average 21 year old. Notwithstanding, it is owing to the fact that I grew up in a sheltered environment I guess. Be that as it may, I am old enough to call the shots now. Am I just waiting to fully recover from this depression and get back on track.
As much as I am desirous to get into a time machine and do over all the idiocies I have done so far, I now that is humanly impossible. Thus, my need to start doing things right from now on. Unwonted decisions due to anxiety can lead you to bad results. However, my passion for learning has not betrayed me. Ever since my late adolescence, I have tried to get hold of as many chunks of knowledge from here and there I could have gathered. Nonetheless, I still believe I could have sprung a surprise by becoming a young prolific bilingual writer had I made different decisions. Not that I cannot become one now. Even so, it would be a lot harder to accomplish it for me considering what I have been doing lately.
Not only would I have to rep up, but I would also have to make frequent mental exertions to achieve my ultimate goal. Besides, even if I were lucky enough to finally get where I want to, I still would be haunted by my regrets of untimely learning. Hence, they are something I will have to live with anyway. Moreover, no contrivance is going to help me reach my goals quicker. However old I am now is still early enough to accomplish them. Despite the fact that I myself do not believe the aforesaid words, they are still true. It seems as though nothing will subvert my beliefs, as impolitic as some of them may be considered.
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