Friday, it seems unreal that after all what has happened thus far, I am still kicking. Am I not taking the piss when I say I am one step out of school. This may be old news but I must keep attending until I my ideas jell and I figure out what to do next. Have I realized indeed that my bitterness towards my kin had congealed into hatred at some point. Thus, was I wasting my time in these piddling matters and not concentrating on achieving more than school success; which by the way I do not even have anymore. Still and all, I have overcome those feelings and by no means I expect a fluke to save me. You see, I have dreamed with fulfilling many goals during my life. Such as having a full time job as an ESL teacher, acquiring a stringy body, among other things I could exalt in. Nonetheless, my luck has not been that good quite yet. At the moment, I am mooching off my parents. Temporarily though. Despite the fact that the whiff of success seems to be too far to reach for me, something inside me tells me not to throw in the towel just yet. The suggestion to avoid quiting might not go down well with me. However, I cannot chicken out from my problems. Despite the fact that sometimes I feel like hightailing it from it all and move to a utopia, I am not able to afford that yet. By letting others control my actions I have also allowed them to heist precious years of my life. Ergo, more than ever do I have to size up the situation and decide quickly. As well as tuning in to every peace of valuable advice I get from now on. Failure is creeping up on me and I must stamp it out. Besides I want to have enough cash in the future to afford to spiffy outfits so as to wear them every day. Hence, I am going to go on as long as my chances permit me to. I just will not bug out anymore owing to the fact that nothing is worse than being a coward. From here on in, I do not care whether they kick me out or not. I will keep going and try to be a little more responsible. Not to mention that I am done for being racked by regrets. My own will it what will ultimately cure me by preventing myself from letting up.