To be honest, I thought I was not going to write down a single word anymore. For I have sinned deeply towards myself.  At some point did I optimize my talent for languages, but only at a tiny extent. You see since I have never been that social, I have had a lot of trouble practicing my English.

Not to mention that now more than ever, it is impossible for me to wipe out the past. Owing to the fact that I had been laying up problems for myself. Of course I perfectly do realize the consequences of my absences to school. Nonetheless, that did not prevent me from doing wrong. On account of this, I came across the following religious quote: Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother´s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye. Intermittently do I begin to understand that I was in fact behaving that way. Overcoming depression encompasses a lot of will power. Notwithstanding, I was prolonging it as much as I could. Neither had I exhausted all the possibilities to improve my health. People have had enough of me playing victim. Have I had enough times to take the reins of my life. Nonetheless, I feel as if a demon had extruded my confidence right out of my soul. Until when should I remain this way? Do I want to keep making myself gaunt? Do I really want to get winded next time I jog? If I ever? Going back to what I said earlier, how do I expect to advance my English knowledge if I don´t even show up at class? Should I part company with my silliness once in for all. What is more, I should stop scrutinizing my past. Moreover, I have to learn not to make my problems intractable. Do I really wish there was a panacea to solve all my problems. Such as a genie granting me time travel to the past so as to correct all my mistakes. As impractical as the aforesaid statement might sound, it is worth to believe for me if it is going to keep me alive. Neither do I know whether or not there is ever going to be a way to accomplish time travel nor do I know if there is a god. Even so, It is not as if there were a dearth of options for me to progress. Anyhow if I do not want to end up having a single more regret as I get on in years, should I start getting myself into gear and stop looking back. For how much longer should I behave as if I were long in the tooth for?