The deleterious effects  of stress could catch up with me. Was I indeed an up and coming individual before I messed up. Thus, I have to deal with a hard nut to crack.  Not to mention that it is hard for me to come up with any sort of snappy remark at this point. My tenuous hopes are the only thing that keep me breathing.

To be honest, it would have been a lot easier to write this if I had had a few notes ready so as kind of cobble together this post. Besides, I subscribe to the idea that it is a lot more productive to write when you are not lying down. No contention whatsoever would arise the counter the aforesaid statement. On the other hand, am I still hung-up over the fact that I have been short-changed by some employees despite my all my hard work and constant studying.

My conscience smites me each time I start thinking about staff. However, bashing yourself over what is already over is not wise whatsoever. Still do I not know how to ramp up my spirits. Not that I am a skittish folk. Still and all, my weak character gets crushed quite often by shoddy treatment. Despite the fact that my character has not always exactly been like this. My work may be a tribute to my skills.

Nonetheless, what is the point if I do not get paid for it?. I do not know if what is happening to me now will portend even more crap coming up. I hope my imagination is just playing tricks on me. Lastly, I wish sometime soon my now raspy voice can utter a victory. Any kind not to wanting to make bones about it. Even if it is not related to my main goals. I would just subsume it to my list of few times of happiness.