Dream - Motivational Video

2015 is around the corner. Do I have regrets? Many. I have realized though, that I am never going to start living if I focus on them though. The second I decided to take a step and change my life; not only did I gain momentum. I also began having outstanding experiences and meeting wonderful people. Could I never had accomplished those short-term goals, had I not changed my mindset. Depression can take its toll on you if you do not learn how to control it. Moreover, I have also acknowledged the fact that it is completely pointless not to do something you want just because someone else told you not to do it. Irrespective of the fact that asking for advice is important sometimes, it is ultimately you who makes the decision. Ergo, oftentimes it is not that relevant to ponder over doing something or enquire about it. Sometimes, it is necessary for you to do things without asking for permission. Anyhow, I still have a long way to go down the road and so do you. Why don´t we help each other?. I will start out by working out a new plan on how to be happy. You can help by giving some feedback in the future. Truth be told, some of my posts may have irked many people I know. Nonetheless, most of the ones I have written have had a totally different impact on the people who started reading them. Even though I had been keeping this blog as a secret when I first started out, I learned afterwards that it was meaningless not to share my thoughts with others. Thus, I decided to make it public to every single person who finds the time to follow it. Perhaps the main reason this blog was created in the first place was so that I could have one more way to emote. Notwithstanding, that change along the way. Also, there is a need not to compartmentalize your life that strictly. You see, there has to be a balance not only between work and leisure, but also between what you keep to yourself and what you tell others. Hence, the importance to for you to balance them out as best as you can. Any other recommendations on how to be more open-minded this forthcoming year. There is a few ways I have thought of. For instance, you will be amazed at what you can accomplish by doing some of these things while in public: Look up and position yourself in a more approachable manner during social gatherings. Try as much as you can to be less inarticulate and narrow-minded when speaking to others. Lastly, I would say the the key to surrounding yourself with remarkable people is by looking for like-minded individuals at first. Then, will it certainly be much easier to bond with these new folks you meet. Bonus information? Well I have always heard it always works out better if you act less narcissistic during first dates. Still, there are lots of more ways to tackle your reservations. Anyway, just as one conversation or piece of advice can dissolve your kept-back anger in a matter of minutes, I hope this post has accomplished to motivate the same way. Therefore, I encourage you to stop prepping for doing things and begin tipping your toe in something that gets you going. By the way, the idea for this post sprang from a video a watched before writing down this stuff. Are you still trying to find your bearings in life? Guess what? So am I...

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Some results seem to be up in the air. Today after many dramas a pointless visits to therapists, I got accepted to a training program in an English language center. Still and all, I must apply after I am done with the course. One more reason not to keep carping on about the past. Sometimes, there is no way to bypass the rules. May I have got sidetracked on countless occasions regarding moving on. Nonetheless, it is up to me whether or not I want to grab a pair and start looking for a job once and for all. My worst enemy is myself. Any sort of job I find at this point is going to help me out a lot. Not only because it is going to help me get experience, but else due to the fact that the money I earn will make me more independent. To find someone who imparts  even-handed justice when it comes to hiring is hard these days. There always some sort of benefits one candidate might have over other when it comes to big companies. Unless of course there is honest supervision ahead of hand. I mean, have I finally realized that by being uncooperative with the people who have tried to help I have been hurting myself. It is irrelevant whether or not I did not learn something before that I am learning now. I mean after many years of ruminating over the past, have I understood that people are not actually meant to learn anything at a certain point of their lives. Even though it is more beneficial to learn a second language for instance, when one is as young as possible. Nonetheless, it is not of earth- shaking importance not to pick up certain things until later on in life. Still and all, I have become so obsessed with English that even a tiny little expression I learn at a later point of my learning process makes me mad. What is more, do I lastly have to stop putting on the drama queen show. The only way in which I am going to get the results I am expecting is by working hard and being bold. Irrespective of the fact that I still may be a budding writer, do I know my stuff. Not that I could teach any subject matter there is with one hand tied behind my back. Neither do any of the assholes whom have annoyed the heck out of me and call themselves teachers. Despite the fact that I have got my rarely experienced mood swings sorted out, do I still have to work on my self-confidence. I may not be as bright as buttons when it comes to take advice. Notwithstanding, I am regarding learning things. I mean if I luckily get to die of old age after all, I want to be lauded for my courage on my epitaph. Instead of having a last message of me saying that I had been an effing coward, throughout my entire life. By not being conflictive and looking at the bright side of things, you get to learn that holding grudges against people is completely unreasonable. Then again, there are people of different hues. Howbeit, unless the reasons for hating someone are really extreme, there is always a chance of forgiving. Sincere and everlasting care should never be discredited. Lastly, I would say that using this blog as an outlet so as to share my talents may not be as useful anymore.

Don't Die Trying to Make it—Finding Your Way Home...The Life We Are Mean...

I had a nice Christmas eve. Here in Peru we tend to celebrate Christmas the night before it. Anyhow, I have been trying to blank out all my former bad experiences. However, it has not been that easy. I mean it literary has been really hard for me to make decisions throughout my entire life at my discretion. As I have said many times, my kin´s opinion has won out over mine on countless occasions. Thus, the need for me to find a way out of their control. It seems as if the had been bent on making life harsh for me no matter what. I mean, I feel rudderless at this point of my life. I cannot find a purpose to keep trying whatsoever.

The crucial decision student make right after they finish high school is life-threatening here. Nonetheless, after I graduated myself, I never had the chance to take a hiatus so as to ponder over what to do next. Instead, I was forced to get into a shitty college which was so expensive that it did not even make sense for me to be there in the first place. Not only was this school not all it was cracked up to be, but it also was one at did not intend to attend. I mean the whole point of me going to college for a year before immigrating to Canada seemed pointless. My English would have never been good enough so as to handle it on my own in a Canadian school with an intermediate level.

What I reckon would have been a wiser recommendation from my only sibling was to ask me to keep improving my English. Anyway, as much as I wish I were as bumptious as my aforesaid brother is in order to be heard by others, it is not my nature. Notwithstanding, as I have been told several times: ¨The record has got stuck¨. I tend to complain all the time and am regarded as an overly negative person. Still and all, I have been brought back down to earth by my friends´ advice. In all fairness though, had any of the people who know me outside my relatives been through what I have, they would have gone berserk too. Thus, of course it does agitate me when people do not get why I behave the way I do sometimes.

Not to mention that as a consequence of my own failures, I tend to be envious of other people´s success. I mean, it would make perfect sense if my own defeats in life had taken place entirely due to my own actions. Howbeit, it did not happen that way. The only one chance I have got to hatch any of my ideas is the one I had to create this blog. Besides that, I have never been given a shot. Not to mention that I could in fact count on the fingers of one hand the times I have not been rejected by an employer for instance. This world is so full of malevolent individual who feed on the suffering of others. Be that as it may, there are also those who cast their bread upon the waters. Unfortunately, I have only run into a few of them. Nonetheless, those guys are the ones who keep me alive. Ergo, this would be the right moment to bring up one quote a wise person once said No road is long with good company. Had I not been told so many tall tales by my mom about real life, I would have developed way more friendships. Even so, I have been shaken up by seasoned thinkers. Perhaps later than sooner, but I have nonetheless.

How to Move On and Find Closure

Today it was a really productive day. I woke up early as I had not done in a long time. I went over to have breakfast with my brother at his hotel, not to mention that I really had a great time with some friends from school I had not seen in a while. Besides all that, I have been bugging my friend David asking him English words all day long. By the way I heard this quote that says as follows: ¨It is easy to sow discord, but more difficult to sow kindness¨. That really struck me. Do I tend to complain too much about my life and not lift a finger so as to change anything sometimes. Further, as I have said countless times I have always used this blog so as to disclose my innermost feelings. However, it has until this date been extremely hard for me to express myself to people. Still and all, can I say that I have made a little improvement recently. What is more, a wise man told me that it takes all sorts to make a world. In fact, I am starting to realize how much I was losing out by not trying to accept the way I was and move on. Not that I want to oversimplify my problems now. Notwithstanding, still do I think I have mentioned them way too many times. Consequently, I wanted to talk about more interesting things. Insubstantial matters are not worth bringing up sometimes. Could I say that I have been trying not to throw my brothers´ help back in his face. Due to the fact that I have done that in the past, I am not willing to make the same error. Not only do I worry people who care about me by leaving them hanging, but I also get to the point of disappointing them. Besides, I cannot keep sloughing off my responsibilities any longer. Ergo, do I have to sort things out once and for all. Must I learn to put the past behind me and carry on. Have I been told a million times there is no rewind button in life. This is the time in which I have to make a mental note and start over from scratch. Perhaps by hashing plans out with a friend can I start having better results. It is just pointless to hang on to bad memories. Thus, the need for me to man up and incorporate a goal in my to-do list. Anyway, not do I have to turn into an effusive individual, but I seriously have to prioritize working on my self-regard before it is too late. I mean one thing is to be polite towards others. Nonetheless, another totally different is not to know how to disarm people who hurt you without being foolish. Finally, I would like to quote what I recently posted on my Facebook account: ¨Courtesy and courage are not mutually exclussive¨

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I had a lovely day, besides having been ill on Wednesday. To be honest, I did not think I was going to recover from my depression. Nonetheless, I have found new hope thanks to the new friendships I have made. The only thing I have left to do now is to keep practicing my English as much as I can, apart from praying and exalting the lord that is. Even though I have been over a barrel on countless occasions especially when I was in Canada, I did learn something out them. I know what kind of person I do not want to be from now on. Further, am I trying to reconcile myself to the hardships I must deal with due to my previous mistakes. Notwithstanding, life always gives you second chances. What is more, I do not want my friends´ patience to give out. To be honest, your personal life is not something you bandy about in front of strangers. That is why as I said before, I use this blog as a platform to vent my issues. However, I also try to give out advice whenever I can. Since my family has never been broad-minded with me; I try to make it up for my lack of validation and express my opinions here. Many a time have I tried to get better after doing unreasonable things. Unfortunately, most of the doctors I have seen have screwed money out of me. Only a few close friends have shown deep concern regarding my situation. Be that as it may, I do not want to draw them all into this. Further, the priority for me now is to try vanquish my fears and keep on with my treatment. I cannot be a wet blanket for the rest of my life. Moreover, I would not want to interpolate some random phrase at the end of this post. Ergo, I must speak my mind now. For starters, I should get in the habit of getting up early once again. Secondly, I cannot just let my illness die down, I must get the help I need in order to sort out my health. For now, God is the only one who can remit myself from my sins.  I still may bristle at what my family did to me in the past when I cogitate on it. Even so, I cannot carry on being a negative person who tends to be garrulous about his past errors. Will I be able to rise to the challenge life has set for me. Well, I could start off by avoiding smashing up things every time I get mad. It is up to me whether or not I want my kin keep directing me. By the way, my brother is coming over for Christmas and I must build myself up so as to rehearse what I am going to tell him. I do not want to come across as an asshole after many years of having altercations with him. Anyhow, watch this space. Who knows what I can achieve once I finally am over the hump. It may have been remiss of me not to take action sooner. Howbeit, I am doing it now.

Gary Marcus: It's never too late to learn something new

A good friend told me to he was going to issue me with a challenge. He told me to write about positive things so as to feel better. I does hit me between the eyes when I read a comment or anything I neglected reading in the morning. I start out pondering about the ¨what ifs¨. Anyhow, I also had a row with my dean last night regarding one of her employees. Since I had not complained about her negligent behaviour earlier on, every one thought nothing was wrong at school. Besides, I might add that my classmates did not say a thing cause they feared about their grades.

There are more important things to talk about though. It has indeed hit me between the eyes to see how much time I have been wasting throwing tantrums and complaining about stuff. Do I have to see at the other side of the coin. However it is not that easy after what I have done. I mean I have scared my mom to the point in which she thinks I am going to do something bad to her. Nonetheless, the least  I want to do is that. From now on I am willing to toe the line at everything I commit to do in the future. Not to mention that I must get in line and start working hard on what I want to achieve. When rumours start being bruited about you, thing get a little more difficult than usual. To be honest, all I have care about in the past years has been to enrich my knowledge of English as much as I could.

Unfortunately I have not get as much interaction as I wish I had. However, now  I feel ranged of my former existence. I am not the morning person I used to be. I do not go jogging anymore, among other things. I used to be set in my ways so to speak. Be that as it may, all that change the second I got sick. I mean I am still trying to get ahold of a time machine. Still and all, some friends would have preferred me to hold back on that comment. Moreover, am I trying to defuse my anger for not having checked on my email this morning. There was quite a few interesting info I missed out on for being reckless. Still do I resent having gone berserk last night. Even so, I was sick. Some do not seem to understand that. Irrespective of what I have done thus far, am I still alive and wanting to change. May I have never gotten the cane back when I was a child. However, I did got a lot psychological abuse from my next of kin.

Perhaps I am in fact slipping back as my friend said by focusing on the past. Thus from hereon in, I will do my best so as not to devalue myself and becoming a morning person again. Must I try not to allow doctors palliate my illness, but to cure it. Ergo, If I had to take pills for the rest of my life so be it. Only if I am minded so as to improve my health will achieve so. Lastly I would say that I must find a way in order to make my ideas intersect with each other and find that internal peace I seek.

P.S David, if you have got an anecdote regarding bullying, I´d love to hear it. I am still struck with that topic.

How To Stop Being A Victim - The #1 Reason You Are Stuck In Life

It is been a while since the last time I jotted down some words. It has been a nightmare to be honest. The few people have I talked to tend to tell me that I monopolize the conversations I am involved in. Not that I want to warm people down but I do really think I need help. Nonetheless, most of the psychologist I have seen have shown utter disregard regarding my problem. It is totally inhumane how nowadays doctors in Lima are extremely disrespectful so as to even talk on the phone while seeing their patients.The fact that I have never been forceful has let them take advantage of me. However, now I am trying to change. I definitely feel out of place in most social situations taking place in Peru. Not that I am racist or anything. Be that as it may, people here are used to being too insensitive that it makes me sick to my stomach. I have heard of many suicide cases from teenagers whom did not have a chance to be heard. To be quite honest if push comes to show for many of those children´s lives, nobody cares. It pains me a lot. Many people suffer deeply and nobody gives a darn so as to help them. In my case for instance, there was a nasty teacher that was abusing her authority. I I regret the fact that I never spoke out though. Thus, I started  feeling worse and worse. What I am trying to say is that we have to be bold enough to say what we think out loud every time we see injustices going on. Not to mention, that  there is no point in sickening yourself by swallowing insults and criticism. What is more, there more you assert yourself, the more people respect you. Not only do I need to stop persecuting myself for personal growth, but also to need to get a grip on myself. A friend of mine has been making enquiries so as to get me a good doctor. Given the fact that I have not been lucky enough to get a good doctor. A wise person once told me that if I want to effect change in your life you have to work hard on what it is you want to accomplish. Anyhow, when the situation gets clearer, I would like to go to my school and sort out my papers once and for all. I do want to have an education. Owing to the fact that I do want to find my niche some time in the future. Still and all, I still have to be able to hold down a job. For that to happen though, I am going to have to be able to be of sound mind. I hope get happy enough so that I can light off some fireworks in Christmas. Besides, I do have a reason for building my hopes up and idealize my fantasies. Most the values we grow up with are being debased by the selfishness our own. By no means, can we adopt attitudes that prejuduce our neighbours in an exagerated way. Even evil has its limits. The say that one eats an elephan one bite at a time. Perhaps I need more patience and networking with people who can help me. I will not dispute that life is easy whatsoever. Even so, if parents do not support their children in their vocation, the might end up as the boy from the movie ¨The dead poets society¨

Last night, I had the last rehearsal before I get to sing for the Christmas choir taking place today at the church I am attending now. You see, I kind of had an epiphany on the way home after I got back from the church. Am I starting to realize we all are just people. Thus, there is no need to feel inferior to anybody else. In fact, those who believe to be better than the rest have not certainly being reminded of their previous mistakes. I must add nonetheless, that some wrongly believe that they can manipulate their next of kin only because their mindset conflicts with their own. To be honest, I do take the aforesaid comment personal.  I mean, trying to force someone else to have the same beliefs as you do seems unfair. We live in a society in which families most of the time do not set an appropriate example towards their children. Not to mention that due to technology, nowadays it is a lot harder for new generations to have social interaction. Be that as it may, there are always going to be chances to bond with others. In fact, I for instance feel as I had been deprived of many things during my teenage years. Honestly, sometimes I feel as if the bread had been taken out of my mouth countless times throughout my life. However, there  are many decisions I should have thought through before making. Nonetheless, sometimes emotions take the best out of us. Never will I understand why I oftentimes do the things that I do. Such as for example not to force myself to be more friendly towards the people whom I care about and try to keep in touch with them more often. I guess we all get to have second chances in life though. Lately, I have had the opportunity to meet wonderful people who have given me hope to move on. Have I learned the hard way that twiddling your thumbs while waiting for something to happen does not help you whatsoever. Anyhow, so even though this post has been a little bit shorter than former ones, I will say one more thing before I leave: Remember not to be a dog in the manger. If you happen to have a close one who has a talent you do not possess, do not envy them. Instead, do whatever you can to help them so as to make them better people. Who would not want to have either a daughter or a son who have achieved what perhaps you could accomplish by your own means back when you were their age for instance?

It has been a nice Sunday indeed. Still and all, I yet have to deal with some personal matters. You see, ever since I quit school I exactly have not found a replacement for that activity. I mean, it is true that I am going to a church now besides having gotten a quick training program at an English institute. To be honest, things have picked up. However, I do recognize that I should be more organized from hereon in.

Besides, I have been doing a little bit of research regarding Peter´s book from the bible. Even though I did not get the chance to study the bible thoroughly when I was younger, I am doing it now. Anyhow, so basically I have been meaning to learn a little bit more about this apostle. Thus, the need for me to find out a little more about his life. You see... Peter was one the 12 disciples of Christ. He was in mostly know for having denied Jesus three times before the rooster crowed. Be that as it may, just like everyone else he redeemed himself after a while. His love for Christ was unquestionable. Not to mention that after many years of doing missionary work outside Israel, he got killed after being persecuted.

Although, he did not think of himself worthy enough to die the same way his mentor did. Ergo, he decided to be crucified upside down. In the bible, it is stated that Jesus ordained him so as to be the first pope. ¨The Rock of my Church¨ dialogue in the book of Mathew says so. Remember this: The bible readings are not meant for people who do not want to accept that its teachings are relevant for each person´s every day life. Irrespective of what my next of kin may believe in regards to religion, I am starting to believe that there is in fact a superior being who is taking care of us from up above. Not exactly am I an apologist of Christianity. I am growing into it however.

Lastly, I would say I do not understand how people expect their children to have values if they do not develop them themselves. Albeit, there may be a reason for people to behave the way they do sometimes. The only thing I know is that oftentimes we do not realize that our actions have a lot more relevance that we give to them. I myself confess having let my emotions control me on occasion. I guess most people experience emotional pain at some point of their live though.  By the way I did learn a new word from my friend David: This word is British and is ¨Scatty¨ which is an adjective that means to be forgetful and a bit silly. It is informal though.

How to Deal With Difficult People

It is exactly 04:38 in the morning. I have not actually slept like a log. You see, my worries are so many that I sometimes get lost in thought. What is more, I do not know how many more efforts I have to put out so as to be recognized as a valuable person in the work force. ¨Life is not fair¨- they say. To be honest I agree with that aforesaid statement. Notwithstanding I do recognize having been stubborn when people wanted me not to drop out of school for instance. Still and all, I still got my flare language irrespective of all my mistakes. I do not care for how long I will have to keep trundling the streets looking for a job. Eventually, some good Samaritan will call me. However, I cannot rest on my laurels. I mean it is sad to actually think back to most of the things that have happened to me and see that especially my immediate kin were the ones who actually minded their own business instead of listening to me while still was a child and needed them the most. Notwithstanding, I remember the wise words of this Peruvian poet Cesar Vallejo: ¨There are blows in life so great, I don´t know¨. This world is filled mainly with evil people who do not give a darn about their neighbor´s feelings. Sometimes, I watch with envy how successful individuals saunter by with no preoccupations in their minds whatsoever. What I am trying to say is that I still do not understand is why some are just blessed with prosperity, whereas there are so many people such as myself to whom life has not been mostly fair. My hackles rise when I think about how many evil-doers who have hurt me in the past have gotten away with it without punishment. There are so many people who believe that only because they are not being watched flouting the law, they are going to be able to keep doing it forever. Also, I have realized that it does not matter how much one can fear speaking up against injustice. The worst thing one can do is to allow the wicked get the last laugh. Moreover, it is not that I remain wheeling out the same old excuses in order to justify my bad luck. I mean, regardless of how many more arguments I cite so as to feel less guilty, I do accept that for instance I was not as diligent as I should have been as a child in regards to learning English. Be that is it may, everyone deserves a second chance. Lamentably, I never got mine.

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I am not particularly happy right now, inasmuch as this so called job I had gotten did not turn out to be what I had expected. As much as I would like to reprehend myself for having made yet another mistake, I cannot. May I want my future to sprout. However, there is no way I am going to accomplish that if I do nothing besides writing on this blog. Of course do I need a nine to five job. Be that as it may, am I only going to find it if I keep trying. Despite the fact that negative experiences can indeed curtail your confidence, there is nothing else we have left to do but to move on. One of the most painful things one can do is to burrow into their own past´s bad experiences. Thus, the need to always come up with ways to solving your problems irrespective of your current situation. Be that as it may, I find it hard to start over despite having been passed along quite helpful advice from my closed-ones. How do I expect one day in the foreseeable future to by cherry-picked by a recognized company for an important position among several applicants if I keep eschewing my problems. Perhaps the annoying people who simper at me every time they see me at school might be glad that I am out of their sight for good. Besides, I have to pluck the courage so as to finally get a suitable job for me. There is no time to think about negativity now. May it be hard to remain self-possessed in a hard time. Notwithstanding, it is the best thing to do so as to make better decisions. Regardless of how fearful it might seem to me go up to a worlplace´s counter and ask for a job, I must do it. Have I had enough of being derided by others. If I have to brave a couple of more rejections in order to finally get my ideal job, then so be it. Nonetheless, should start looking as soon as possible. I cannot let anybody else besides the ones who have already done so, keep curtailing my confidence. Maybe now my future does not look rosy. Even so, I will make it look that way. It sure will take me to grope a little more through the darkness towards the right door which will allow me to uncover the light that had been hidden from my sight. As I always say, carping about your issues does not make them go away. Conversely, a lot of hard work and a little hope can turn your life around. Only after I have tried out every possible way to succeed no matter what, will I reap the benefit of my efforts.