I had a nice Christmas eve. Here in Peru we tend to celebrate Christmas the night before it. Anyhow, I have been trying to blank out all my former bad experiences. However, it has not been that easy. I mean it literary has been really hard for me to make decisions throughout my entire life at my discretion. As I have said many times, my kin´s opinion has won out over mine on countless occasions. Thus, the need for me to find a way out of their control. It seems as if the had been bent on making life harsh for me no matter what. I mean, I feel rudderless at this point of my life. I cannot find a purpose to keep trying whatsoever.
The crucial decision student make right after they finish high school is life-threatening here. Nonetheless, after I graduated myself, I never had the chance to take a hiatus so as to ponder over what to do next. Instead, I was forced to get into a shitty college which was so expensive that it did not even make sense for me to be there in the first place. Not only was this school not all it was cracked up to be, but it also was one at did not intend to attend. I mean the whole point of me going to college for a year before immigrating to Canada seemed pointless. My English would have never been good enough so as to handle it on my own in a Canadian school with an intermediate level.
What I reckon would have been a wiser recommendation from my only sibling was to ask me to keep improving my English. Anyway, as much as I wish I were as bumptious as my aforesaid brother is in order to be heard by others, it is not my nature. Notwithstanding, as I have been told several times: ¨The record has got stuck¨. I tend to complain all the time and am regarded as an overly negative person. Still and all, I have been brought back down to earth by my friends´ advice. In all fairness though, had any of the people who know me outside my relatives been through what I have, they would have gone berserk too. Thus, of course it does agitate me when people do not get why I behave the way I do sometimes.
Not to mention that as a consequence of my own failures, I tend to be envious of other people´s success. I mean, it would make perfect sense if my own defeats in life had taken place entirely due to my own actions. Howbeit, it did not happen that way. The only one chance I have got to hatch any of my ideas is the one I had to create this blog. Besides that, I have never been given a shot. Not to mention that I could in fact count on the fingers of one hand the times I have not been rejected by an employer for instance. This world is so full of malevolent individual who feed on the suffering of others. Be that as it may, there are also those who cast their bread upon the waters. Unfortunately, I have only run into a few of them. Nonetheless, those guys are the ones who keep me alive. Ergo, this would be the right moment to bring up one quote a wise person once said No road is long with good company. Had I not been told so many tall tales by my mom about real life, I would have developed way more friendships. Even so, I have been shaken up by seasoned thinkers. Perhaps later than sooner, but I have nonetheless.
The crucial decision student make right after they finish high school is life-threatening here. Nonetheless, after I graduated myself, I never had the chance to take a hiatus so as to ponder over what to do next. Instead, I was forced to get into a shitty college which was so expensive that it did not even make sense for me to be there in the first place. Not only was this school not all it was cracked up to be, but it also was one at did not intend to attend. I mean the whole point of me going to college for a year before immigrating to Canada seemed pointless. My English would have never been good enough so as to handle it on my own in a Canadian school with an intermediate level.
What I reckon would have been a wiser recommendation from my only sibling was to ask me to keep improving my English. Anyway, as much as I wish I were as bumptious as my aforesaid brother is in order to be heard by others, it is not my nature. Notwithstanding, as I have been told several times: ¨The record has got stuck¨. I tend to complain all the time and am regarded as an overly negative person. Still and all, I have been brought back down to earth by my friends´ advice. In all fairness though, had any of the people who know me outside my relatives been through what I have, they would have gone berserk too. Thus, of course it does agitate me when people do not get why I behave the way I do sometimes.
Not to mention that as a consequence of my own failures, I tend to be envious of other people´s success. I mean, it would make perfect sense if my own defeats in life had taken place entirely due to my own actions. Howbeit, it did not happen that way. The only one chance I have got to hatch any of my ideas is the one I had to create this blog. Besides that, I have never been given a shot. Not to mention that I could in fact count on the fingers of one hand the times I have not been rejected by an employer for instance. This world is so full of malevolent individual who feed on the suffering of others. Be that as it may, there are also those who cast their bread upon the waters. Unfortunately, I have only run into a few of them. Nonetheless, those guys are the ones who keep me alive. Ergo, this would be the right moment to bring up one quote a wise person once said No road is long with good company. Had I not been told so many tall tales by my mom about real life, I would have developed way more friendships. Even so, I have been shaken up by seasoned thinkers. Perhaps later than sooner, but I have nonetheless.
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