Some results seem to be up in the air. Today after many dramas a pointless visits to therapists, I got accepted to a training program in an English language center. Still and all, I must apply after I am done with the course. One more reason not to keep carping on about the past. Sometimes, there is no way to bypass the rules. May I have got sidetracked on countless occasions regarding moving on. Nonetheless, it is up to me whether or not I want to grab a pair and start looking for a job once and for all. My worst enemy is myself. Any sort of job I find at this point is going to help me out a lot. Not only because it is going to help me get experience, but else due to the fact that the money I earn will make me more independent. To find someone who imparts  even-handed justice when it comes to hiring is hard these days. There always some sort of benefits one candidate might have over other when it comes to big companies. Unless of course there is honest supervision ahead of hand. I mean, have I finally realized that by being uncooperative with the people who have tried to help I have been hurting myself. It is irrelevant whether or not I did not learn something before that I am learning now. I mean after many years of ruminating over the past, have I understood that people are not actually meant to learn anything at a certain point of their lives. Even though it is more beneficial to learn a second language for instance, when one is as young as possible. Nonetheless, it is not of earth- shaking importance not to pick up certain things until later on in life. Still and all, I have become so obsessed with English that even a tiny little expression I learn at a later point of my learning process makes me mad. What is more, do I lastly have to stop putting on the drama queen show. The only way in which I am going to get the results I am expecting is by working hard and being bold. Irrespective of the fact that I still may be a budding writer, do I know my stuff. Not that I could teach any subject matter there is with one hand tied behind my back. Neither do any of the assholes whom have annoyed the heck out of me and call themselves teachers. Despite the fact that I have got my rarely experienced mood swings sorted out, do I still have to work on my self-confidence. I may not be as bright as buttons when it comes to take advice. Notwithstanding, I am regarding learning things. I mean if I luckily get to die of old age after all, I want to be lauded for my courage on my epitaph. Instead of having a last message of me saying that I had been an effing coward, throughout my entire life. By not being conflictive and looking at the bright side of things, you get to learn that holding grudges against people is completely unreasonable. Then again, there are people of different hues. Howbeit, unless the reasons for hating someone are really extreme, there is always a chance of forgiving. Sincere and everlasting care should never be discredited. Lastly, I would say that using this blog as an outlet so as to share my talents may not be as useful anymore.