I had a lovely day, besides having been ill on Wednesday. To be honest, I did not think I was going to recover from my depression. Nonetheless, I have found new hope thanks to the new friendships I have made. The only thing I have left to do now is to keep practicing my English as much as I can, apart from praying and exalting the lord that is. Even though I have been over a barrel on countless occasions especially when I was in Canada, I did learn something out them. I know what kind of person I do not want to be from now on. Further, am I trying to reconcile myself to the hardships I must deal with due to my previous mistakes. Notwithstanding, life always gives you second chances. What is more, I do not want my friends´ patience to give out. To be honest, your personal life is not something you bandy about in front of strangers. That is why as I said before, I use this blog as a platform to vent my issues. However, I also try to give out advice whenever I can. Since my family has never been broad-minded with me; I try to make it up for my lack of validation and express my opinions here. Many a time have I tried to get better after doing unreasonable things. Unfortunately, most of the doctors I have seen have screwed money out of me. Only a few close friends have shown deep concern regarding my situation. Be that as it may, I do not want to draw them all into this. Further, the priority for me now is to try vanquish my fears and keep on with my treatment. I cannot be a wet blanket for the rest of my life. Moreover, I would not want to interpolate some random phrase at the end of this post. Ergo, I must speak my mind now. For starters, I should get in the habit of getting up early once again. Secondly, I cannot just let my illness die down, I must get the help I need in order to sort out my health. For now, God is the only one who can remit myself from my sins.  I still may bristle at what my family did to me in the past when I cogitate on it. Even so, I cannot carry on being a negative person who tends to be garrulous about his past errors. Will I be able to rise to the challenge life has set for me. Well, I could start off by avoiding smashing up things every time I get mad. It is up to me whether or not I want my kin keep directing me. By the way, my brother is coming over for Christmas and I must build myself up so as to rehearse what I am going to tell him. I do not want to come across as an asshole after many years of having altercations with him. Anyhow, watch this space. Who knows what I can achieve once I finally am over the hump. It may have been remiss of me not to take action sooner. Howbeit, I am doing it now.