I am not particularly happy right now, inasmuch as this so called job I had gotten did not turn out to be what I had expected. As much as I would like to reprehend myself for having made yet another mistake, I cannot. May I want my future to sprout. However, there is no way I am going to accomplish that if I do nothing besides writing on this blog. Of course do I need a nine to five job. Be that as it may, am I only going to find it if I keep trying. Despite the fact that negative experiences can indeed curtail your confidence, there is nothing else we have left to do but to move on. One of the most painful things one can do is to burrow into their own past´s bad experiences. Thus, the need to always come up with ways to solving your problems irrespective of your current situation. Be that as it may, I find it hard to start over despite having been passed along quite helpful advice from my closed-ones. How do I expect one day in the foreseeable future to by cherry-picked by a recognized company for an important position among several applicants if I keep eschewing my problems. Perhaps the annoying people who simper at me every time they see me at school might be glad that I am out of their sight for good. Besides, I have to pluck the courage so as to finally get a suitable job for me. There is no time to think about negativity now. May it be hard to remain self-possessed in a hard time. Notwithstanding, it is the best thing to do so as to make better decisions. Regardless of how fearful it might seem to me go up to a worlplace´s counter and ask for a job, I must do it. Have I had enough of being derided by others. If I have to brave a couple of more rejections in order to finally get my ideal job, then so be it. Nonetheless, should start looking as soon as possible. I cannot let anybody else besides the ones who have already done so, keep curtailing my confidence. Maybe now my future does not look rosy. Even so, I will make it look that way. It sure will take me to grope a little more through the darkness towards the right door which will allow me to uncover the light that had been hidden from my sight. As I always say, carping about your issues does not make them go away. Conversely, a lot of hard work and a little hope can turn your life around. Only after I have tried out every possible way to succeed no matter what, will I reap the benefit of my efforts.