Hopelesness is what I have the most now. To be honest I have no idea what to do at this point. You see, I am the kind of folk who finds it impossible to forgive himself. As of today, I will try to keep my mind busy. Nonetheless, there are emotional scars I have inside me that are unlikely to ever heal.

 

Many tell me I should play my part, try harder, etc. Even so, my inner fears prevent me from moving on in life. I have been squirming out of my problems for a long time now. Not to mention that my mind has been clouded by hatred towards the ones who hurt me in the past. Have I always been scared of taking chances so as to see a big change in my life. Many times have I tried to pull through my depression on my own. Still and all, at this point in my life I would rather resume my visits to the shrink.

 

Irrespective of what people may say about me venting my problems on the Internet, I feel comfortable doing it. Is it not been easy to break loose from my kin´s control. Be that as it may, I should start walking the walk instead of talking the talk. It sickens me to think about all the mistakes I have made. Nonetheless, I still believe that regardless of all the misfortunes I may have run into, I still can make something out of myself. In addition to the aforesaid difficulties, the amount of misgivings I have had before deciding anything important in the past few years, have been countless.  

 

Lastly, I am going to share a short video about how we can overcome our fears. For instance, in my case, being circumscribed by my family´s overprotection has made me believe things that are not true about myself. Thus, the need for a massive change in my existence. Have I been building castles in the sky for so long, that it is not even funny anymore. Hence, whether or not I eschew my responsibilities even more is up to me. To wrap this up, I would like to add in the following quote: ¨ A great nation is like a great man: when he makes a mistake, he realizes it. Having realized it, he admits it. Having admitted it, he corrects it. He considers those who point out his faults as his most benevolent teachers¨. (Lao Tzu)