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How to deal with toxic parents

As soon as I got into depression in the first place, the help I would get would be "a lick and a promise". Not that I want to keep carping on about it. People do not follow through on their promises that often. Even so, have I  made the irrevocable decision to vent until I find justice. Not to mention that by no means am I defaming anyone. I can guarantee you that what I post every time is 100% true. As a matter of fact, I believe there has been a ploy from fate to make my life a nightmare.

 

On the other side of the coin, some, close to my foes might think otherwise. Even so, nobody can deny the fact that I've got terrible experiences imprinted on my mind owing to the doings of these cynical people who call themselves good. When in fact they are discourteous and evil. Anyhow, life is about giving and taking. Nonetheless, do I believe I have given so little to my peers. It falls on me to make a change though. Sill and all, my success is contingent on whether or not I heal myself. Irrespective of the fact that I could say it will happen in a month of Sundays, hope springs eternal. Do I still think that a miracle can help me bust through my obstacles.

 

By the way, the other day, I received a message from a friend telling me that it's not that I had had my freedom taken away from me. In fact,  he thought that  I had traded it away for comfort. Albeit, do I not concur with it at all. I do think there has been psychological abuse from my family's part. Be that as it may, I would close off about my feelings very often and that worsened my situation even more. For God's sake did I not even pouted when I didn't like something back as a child. Hence, I believe that is the result of my mother hen's influence over me. Let alone my brother's abusive behaviour lessening my self-regard even more.

 

In short, do I keep dramatizing my case. Be that as it may, do I have countless reasons for doing so.

I have little to do but to act against my illness. To say nothing of how many chances I would keep missing out on if I didn't make a prominent decision of getting my act together. May I have had success twitched out of my hands many times. What's more, have I had my susceptibility obliterated a zillion times too. Notwithstanding, something that has not been totally snatched from me is my youth. Lastly, may I be kicking reason to the curb trying to solve my problems. However, am I still on board with carrying on and not going down the same old road.

Eye on Parenting: "Helicopter" Parents

My attitude during the past few days has set my teeth on edge. Not only, cause I would keep on having a bad attitude towards my kin, but also duet to disregarding my main concern which is English. Irrespective of how regretful I feel right now, once more I cannot change the past. However, still do I want highlight the fact that I never intended to totally incriminate my family from the get-go. Still and all, do I still have a long way to go watering down my bitterness.

 

By no means have I let the cat out of the bag so as to instil hatred in my readers. On the contrary, I wanted them to realize how dangerous things can get when families are too controlling. Has there have to be a wash when it comes to raising a child. What's more, have I even encouraged people to act differently when it comes to giving their children freedom. Do I sill squirm when I think back to recent events and realize how much time I was wasting,  even when I  had done so before. Should I have learned to take the rough with smooth a long time ago. Nonetheless, was I never exposed to the world at a young age. Thus, been rendered coy and withdrawn.

 

Beyond that, I would not be getting my hopes up that much until I cure myself from this depression, Moreover, many say that what moulds your personality is your parents upbringing. In other words, my kin has indeed prejudiced me a lot with their actions even if they did not know better.  Be that as it may, I also confess having done bad things lately, such as braking smalls things up owing to desperation for not being able to change the past, As a matter of fact, by doing so the last time I added fuel to the fire and ended up in a tough spot. Albeit, pulling myself out of this situation was not as easy as it seemed. Did I have to make an even greater effort so as to get better and stop sobbing my heart out. For so many years, have I been withdrawn and only thinking on negative things. I believe it's time for me to impede this depression from further developing  and try blotting out all my bad thoughts.

 

In essence, revisiting my past experiences is only going to worsen my condition even more. Not to mention, that from now on, I have to be sure that I don't have to account for my decisions anymore. Has it been so long that my kin has treated me like a puppet that is time for me to stand up to them in a respectful way that is; and ask them time please allow me some elbow room as well. Lastly, would I say that writing all the bad things on a paper that have happened to me so far and crinkle it so as to throw it into the garbage is the best way for my to block out my demons and carry on. Is it imperative for me to follow through on my own promises and coming after people who are worth looking up to.

Should I hold myself to account for the recent developments regarding me not getting better?

Is it hard to pin down the cause of my problem though. Almost anything that doesn't go right can set me down into depression. Hence, making my condition pretty delicate. Not to mention that the only thing tranquilizers do at this point is making me oversleep. At this point however, am I not going to draw your rapt attention at all. Being mollycoddled by my kin has not been the issue, but controlling my every move has. Will I  ever be able to recoup the time lost? Do I doubt it. Nonetheless, being objectionable towards my folks does not help a bit either.

 

Moving into my constant past thoughts, is it also hard for me to block them out. Thinking too much about them leads to overkill. Hence, by delaying my treatment have I put myself in an hazardous situation. Nonetheless, most of the doctors I saw in the past were not really interested in helping out. It seems as if they were categorizing their patients according to whom was going to pay them the most.

Might a modicum of luck raise my spirits. Still and all, my illness has advanced so much I see little to no hope. Even though some of my recent crisis have been brought on by my lack of tolerance; do I still think a few more pills were not gonna do the trick.

 

Am I also put out at some people promising things they were not going to fulfil.  Albeit, I tend to mix and match my emotions and daily activities quite often. In view of the aforesaid, I would say that it would be unlikely for me to free my memory of all that's been happening. Am I at the end of my patience trying to feel better. Has hatred only eaten away at me and ultimately made it impossible for me to regain my composure. Let alone saying that I am at loose ends and with nothing to do. Only a few ideas have drifted in so as to make me feel better.

 

In review, do I feel as if an arrow had been shot into my heart.  Somehow, nonetheless, it is impossible for me to die. How does this aforesaid statement tie in with what I said earlier. Well, it pretty much is the precis of it all. Can I not pass myself off as a dead person. Consequently, for that to be a reality, I would have to make a horrible decision. Since, my unthinking relatives never put enough effort into helping. It does seem reasonable for me to end this suffering. Would I have not budgeted myself had I know I was going to end up like this. Too bad. I have already been suspended from Wonderland. Am I not deterred by what will happened, but by what did not.

At this point I can't afford to filter out bad friendships from good ones. Due to not having many anyway. Some have told me not to have my hands in many pots regarding my beliefs. However, since I am a beginner Christian I must look for wisdom. Irrespective of what's happened, I think there might be a way for me to fully understand the word of God. Despite the fact that my faith has diluted considerably due to all I've been through.

 

The precis of my life has been suffering. Not that I am exaggerating. Though, things have not gone off well ever since I was in high school. Hence, there is no reason for me to be stoked about anything in the foreseeable future. Have I been denigrated by my kin so many times. On top of that have I never severed ties with them, which ultimately made my condition even worse. To say nothing of the fact that I am indeed deterred by what's going to happen.

 

Did I never have the opportunity to be a high flyer, nor a snooty overachieving guy. Instead, I became a gruff and insecure man child who lessens himself without any sort of help. May I be appointing blame now for what's happened. However, I've got the right to. Having an unassuming nature is no sin. Still and all, having a domineering family is. Could I keep on flicking from subject to subject, looking for who was ultimately responsible for my undoing.  Could blame my brother who has always been governed by selfishness, or my mom who after losing a child did not learn a thing and went on being an obsessive old cow.

 

The truth of the matter is that as reluctant I am to keep living, I don't even know if it will make a difference if I do. Considering this past terrible week I've had. Not to mention my reticent demeanour regarding confronting people who had been rude to me. Have I been led up the garden path by my own fantasies.  Even so, have I also been reluctant in realizing the truth. What's more, have I been running up problems lately owing to not dealing with them right away. Be that as it may, can I not unload them onto anyone else. May my dreams have distracted from what I must do. Still and all, can I not keep letting my problems pile up.

Would I give my right arm to rewind my life to the point in which I was happy. Unfortunately though, I  had a rude awakening after realizing that is never going to be possible. My kin went so far as to taking control of my life in an overbearing way, nullifying my efforts completely. Not to mention that their constant imprudent decisions not only took away my freedom, bet did not even leave enough room to breathe. Thus, I could say that my next of kin took it upon themselves to transform me into a living puppet.

 

Still and all, why do I keep on with this drama?. Well, let us say that irrespective of my efforts to overcome this all, have not been able to. Have I never been on the ball regarding my brother's evil intentions for instance. Regardless, am I still in denial as regards to this happening. To say nothing of their way inopportune "offers to help". Many could say that my posts revolve around my household issues. Nonetheless, that is not true at all. I am just trying to make it public the kind of people my kin really are.

 

Have you taken leave of your senses? Some may ask me, when I bring up the possibility of me ending it all.  Be that as it may, I see no other way out. In my view, living hell on earth cannot be worse than going to the actual place. Have I taken upon myself so as to making that decision myself too.

At first glance, does it seem stupid. Even so, when you hear my story, it doesn't altogether seem that way whatsoever. If you were to ask me how I have been getting along for the past years of my life, would say one word: "Hell".

 

Not only did I have to overcome daily vicissitudes of our time in a third world nation, also did I have to deal with a  psychopath bully brother and a domineering divorced mom. To be honest, freedom has never been recorded into my data base whatsoever. Moderating my behaviour won't do much at this point either. My worries continue to pile up non-stop and it seems unreal how a person in such distress can get over any of this.  To close things out, I would say that by no means did I intend this to be another dramatic post. Albeit, I will be signing off with good news in mind for the future.

Frank Turek Answers Atheist's 3 Objections to Christianity

As opposed to how I was feeling before, there has been an slight improvement indeed. In fact being able not to act grouchy all the time is an achievement in my book. Irrespective of what has happened though, I keep holding fast to my beliefs no matter what. Anyhow, not that I want to digress, but it would be better if I go on with today's topic.

 

Still do I seem a bit incredulous whether or not the existence of a supernatural overseer. Nonetheless, faith is the last thing we lose. Thereby, allowing the slight chance of a god in fact watching over us. Even so, little or nothing do we know about what we cannot see. Hence, remaining faithless is common nowadays. Not to mention that Apologetics somehow tackles the question why our creator allows so much suffering to take place in our world. For instance, I have heard experts saying that after humans were created, they brought pain onto themselves, due to starting to behave unfairly towards each other. Nonetheless, still does the aforesaid statements seems unreasonable. How can God remain uncaring and without taking action after witnessing all the injustices on earth, even when  he was not the main reason why they began happening in the first place?

 

This topic is enthralling in a way. Be that as it may, the information we have got about it remains incomplete. Apart from the manuscripts of the bible that strict Christians follow to the letter, we do not have much. To say nothing of the hundreds of other religions besides Christianity that try explain the reason for our daily vicissitudes in their own unique way. To illustrated my aforementioned point, I would mention the belief the Buddhists have about Karma. It does make sense. In fact, we have to indeed pay the piper for our costly mistakes. Don't we?. However, some other beliefs such as reincarnation do not make as much sense. Ergo, raising even more doubts about which creed is the right one. To say nothing of some self-proclaim religions that have creeds and rituals to laugh about.

 

To close things out, will I end my thoughts with a video on Apologetics, so as to further expand on it. We all count with the ability to imagine wonderful things. Albeit, whether they come to fruition is yet unknown. Hence, the need for us to hold fast to our faith and keep dreaming hoping for the impossible. Oftentimes though, we should also pay close attention to the phrase "Seeing is believing". Especially on out daily lives. Even when we at the same time have to keep in our minds the belief of an invisible and intangible god watching over us.

REAL Time Travel Science - Documentary

Have I not been writing for a while now. Not much of what I've been doing recently plants seeds for the future. Except, for part of my daily activities that is. My involvement with Anglican churches in Peru has somehow helped me to recover little by little from this anxiousness I seem to have had for a long time now. Be that as it may, is it still hard for me to rein in my anger each time I ponder over the past. Hence, do I seem to be flustered every time I daydream and unpleasant memory pops up. Moreover, the need for me to keep my mind busy as long as possible. The longer one remains occupied, the better it is to whittle down your problems' importance. Notwithstanding, depending on the emotional state of the person the addition of professional help might also be required.

 

After a hiatus in an individuals normal life due to any reason; is it crucial to resume your activities in a progressive pace. The aforesaid statement makes so much sense perhaps shouldn't even be mentioned. Even so, some ultimately pay the piper owing to fatigue for believing the can catch up in a shorter time than everyone else. Ergo, the need not to discount experience as a reference for any decision at all times. Anyhow,  at this point, did want to stop beating my chest for the time being and talk about something else. Thus, I came up with the idea of bringing up my already rusty time travel topic. Albeit, every time I mention it, I touch on a different point. For instance today I was thinking about something a friend told me some time ago. He said that perhaps time travel to the past would not only involve one person, but every single one on this earth. Why would he say something like that?

 

He never explained to me his reasoning regarding that comment. However, I could interpret it as a way to consider that the movement of our planet affects us all, and not only one person. Still have I not exactly figured out whether his reasoning was accurate or not. Be that as it may, I will share a video, as I always do, regarding that remark. To say nothing of the fact an expert's answer would indeed weigh more than mine. Besides, those so share knowledge with no strings attached are the ones who really should be called educators. What do I mean by this? You see, yet do I believe that most private schools, especially in developing countries couldn't care less whether their students are progressing or not. Consequently, my admiration goes to those who without making any ridiculous sacrifice still manage to tend to their students' needs.

 

In review, I would say that is it indeed fascinating the idea of traveling through space and time. Even though, it seems mostly unlikely in our life-time; is it never a bad thing to dream with the possibility of that happening anyway. What's more, as cheesy as this may sound, I keep hearing this saying: "When there is a will, there is a way". That is mostly true. Irrespective of how many questions remain unanswered. To round things up, it would be reasonable to remind you that before most of the amazing developments that have taken place on this earth, there were deemed impossible. Hence, so as to achieve the unthinkable, one primarily has to believe it can be attained. Anyway, regardless of the fact that my writing is a little rusty and I do not seem to have a silver tongue; still did I got around to writing this. Still and all, will I try to throw out more ideas next time.