My attitude during the past few days has set my teeth on edge. Not only, cause I would keep on having a bad attitude towards my kin, but also duet to disregarding my main concern which is English. Irrespective of how regretful I feel right now, once more I cannot change the past. However, still do I want highlight the fact that I never intended to totally incriminate my family from the get-go. Still and all, do I still have a long way to go watering down my bitterness.

 

By no means have I let the cat out of the bag so as to instil hatred in my readers. On the contrary, I wanted them to realize how dangerous things can get when families are too controlling. Has there have to be a wash when it comes to raising a child. What's more, have I even encouraged people to act differently when it comes to giving their children freedom. Do I sill squirm when I think back to recent events and realize how much time I was wasting,  even when I  had done so before. Should I have learned to take the rough with smooth a long time ago. Nonetheless, was I never exposed to the world at a young age. Thus, been rendered coy and withdrawn.

 

Beyond that, I would not be getting my hopes up that much until I cure myself from this depression, Moreover, many say that what moulds your personality is your parents upbringing. In other words, my kin has indeed prejudiced me a lot with their actions even if they did not know better.  Be that as it may, I also confess having done bad things lately, such as braking smalls things up owing to desperation for not being able to change the past, As a matter of fact, by doing so the last time I added fuel to the fire and ended up in a tough spot. Albeit, pulling myself out of this situation was not as easy as it seemed. Did I have to make an even greater effort so as to get better and stop sobbing my heart out. For so many years, have I been withdrawn and only thinking on negative things. I believe it's time for me to impede this depression from further developing  and try blotting out all my bad thoughts.

 

In essence, revisiting my past experiences is only going to worsen my condition even more. Not to mention, that from now on, I have to be sure that I don't have to account for my decisions anymore. Has it been so long that my kin has treated me like a puppet that is time for me to stand up to them in a respectful way that is; and ask them time please allow me some elbow room as well. Lastly, would I say that writing all the bad things on a paper that have happened to me so far and crinkle it so as to throw it into the garbage is the best way for my to block out my demons and carry on. Is it imperative for me to follow through on my own promises and coming after people who are worth looking up to.