Would I give my right arm to rewind my life to the point in which I was happy. Unfortunately though, I  had a rude awakening after realizing that is never going to be possible. My kin went so far as to taking control of my life in an overbearing way, nullifying my efforts completely. Not to mention that their constant imprudent decisions not only took away my freedom, bet did not even leave enough room to breathe. Thus, I could say that my next of kin took it upon themselves to transform me into a living puppet.

 

Still and all, why do I keep on with this drama?. Well, let us say that irrespective of my efforts to overcome this all, have not been able to. Have I never been on the ball regarding my brother's evil intentions for instance. Regardless, am I still in denial as regards to this happening. To say nothing of their way inopportune "offers to help". Many could say that my posts revolve around my household issues. Nonetheless, that is not true at all. I am just trying to make it public the kind of people my kin really are.

 

Have you taken leave of your senses? Some may ask me, when I bring up the possibility of me ending it all.  Be that as it may, I see no other way out. In my view, living hell on earth cannot be worse than going to the actual place. Have I taken upon myself so as to making that decision myself too.

At first glance, does it seem stupid. Even so, when you hear my story, it doesn't altogether seem that way whatsoever. If you were to ask me how I have been getting along for the past years of my life, would say one word: "Hell".

 

Not only did I have to overcome daily vicissitudes of our time in a third world nation, also did I have to deal with a  psychopath bully brother and a domineering divorced mom. To be honest, freedom has never been recorded into my data base whatsoever. Moderating my behaviour won't do much at this point either. My worries continue to pile up non-stop and it seems unreal how a person in such distress can get over any of this.  To close things out, I would say that by no means did I intend this to be another dramatic post. Albeit, I will be signing off with good news in mind for the future.