As soon as I got into depression in the first place, the help I would get would be "a lick and a promise". Not that I want to keep carping on about it. People do not follow through on their promises that often. Even so, have I  made the irrevocable decision to vent until I find justice. Not to mention that by no means am I defaming anyone. I can guarantee you that what I post every time is 100% true. As a matter of fact, I believe there has been a ploy from fate to make my life a nightmare.

 

On the other side of the coin, some, close to my foes might think otherwise. Even so, nobody can deny the fact that I've got terrible experiences imprinted on my mind owing to the doings of these cynical people who call themselves good. When in fact they are discourteous and evil. Anyhow, life is about giving and taking. Nonetheless, do I believe I have given so little to my peers. It falls on me to make a change though. Sill and all, my success is contingent on whether or not I heal myself. Irrespective of the fact that I could say it will happen in a month of Sundays, hope springs eternal. Do I still think that a miracle can help me bust through my obstacles.

 

By the way, the other day, I received a message from a friend telling me that it's not that I had had my freedom taken away from me. In fact,  he thought that  I had traded it away for comfort. Albeit, do I not concur with it at all. I do think there has been psychological abuse from my family's part. Be that as it may, I would close off about my feelings very often and that worsened my situation even more. For God's sake did I not even pouted when I didn't like something back as a child. Hence, I believe that is the result of my mother hen's influence over me. Let alone my brother's abusive behaviour lessening my self-regard even more.

 

In short, do I keep dramatizing my case. Be that as it may, do I have countless reasons for doing so.

I have little to do but to act against my illness. To say nothing of how many chances I would keep missing out on if I didn't make a prominent decision of getting my act together. May I have had success twitched out of my hands many times. What's more, have I had my susceptibility obliterated a zillion times too. Notwithstanding, something that has not been totally snatched from me is my youth. Lastly, may I be kicking reason to the curb trying to solve my problems. However, am I still on board with carrying on and not going down the same old road.