A good friend told me to he was going to issue me with a challenge. He told me to write about positive things so as to feel better. I does hit me between the eyes when I read a comment or anything I neglected reading in the morning. I start out pondering about the ¨what ifs¨. Anyhow, I also had a row with my dean last night regarding one of her employees. Since I had not complained about her negligent behaviour earlier on, every one thought nothing was wrong at school. Besides, I might add that my classmates did not say a thing cause they feared about their grades.
There are more important things to talk about though. It has indeed hit me between the eyes to see how much time I have been wasting throwing tantrums and complaining about stuff. Do I have to see at the other side of the coin. However it is not that easy after what I have done. I mean I have scared my mom to the point in which she thinks I am going to do something bad to her. Nonetheless, the least I want to do is that. From now on I am willing to toe the line at everything I commit to do in the future. Not to mention that I must get in line and start working hard on what I want to achieve. When rumours start being bruited about you, thing get a little more difficult than usual. To be honest, all I have care about in the past years has been to enrich my knowledge of English as much as I could.
Unfortunately I have not get as much interaction as I wish I had. However, now I feel ranged of my former existence. I am not the morning person I used to be. I do not go jogging anymore, among other things. I used to be set in my ways so to speak. Be that as it may, all that change the second I got sick. I mean I am still trying to get ahold of a time machine. Still and all, some friends would have preferred me to hold back on that comment. Moreover, am I trying to defuse my anger for not having checked on my email this morning. There was quite a few interesting info I missed out on for being reckless. Still do I resent having gone berserk last night. Even so, I was sick. Some do not seem to understand that. Irrespective of what I have done thus far, am I still alive and wanting to change. May I have never gotten the cane back when I was a child. However, I did got a lot psychological abuse from my next of kin.
Perhaps I am in fact slipping back as my friend said by focusing on the past. Thus from hereon in, I will do my best so as not to devalue myself and becoming a morning person again. Must I try not to allow doctors palliate my illness, but to cure it. Ergo, If I had to take pills for the rest of my life so be it. Only if I am minded so as to improve my health will achieve so. Lastly I would say that I must find a way in order to make my ideas intersect with each other and find that internal peace I seek.
There are more important things to talk about though. It has indeed hit me between the eyes to see how much time I have been wasting throwing tantrums and complaining about stuff. Do I have to see at the other side of the coin. However it is not that easy after what I have done. I mean I have scared my mom to the point in which she thinks I am going to do something bad to her. Nonetheless, the least I want to do is that. From now on I am willing to toe the line at everything I commit to do in the future. Not to mention that I must get in line and start working hard on what I want to achieve. When rumours start being bruited about you, thing get a little more difficult than usual. To be honest, all I have care about in the past years has been to enrich my knowledge of English as much as I could.
Unfortunately I have not get as much interaction as I wish I had. However, now I feel ranged of my former existence. I am not the morning person I used to be. I do not go jogging anymore, among other things. I used to be set in my ways so to speak. Be that as it may, all that change the second I got sick. I mean I am still trying to get ahold of a time machine. Still and all, some friends would have preferred me to hold back on that comment. Moreover, am I trying to defuse my anger for not having checked on my email this morning. There was quite a few interesting info I missed out on for being reckless. Still do I resent having gone berserk last night. Even so, I was sick. Some do not seem to understand that. Irrespective of what I have done thus far, am I still alive and wanting to change. May I have never gotten the cane back when I was a child. However, I did got a lot psychological abuse from my next of kin.
Perhaps I am in fact slipping back as my friend said by focusing on the past. Thus from hereon in, I will do my best so as not to devalue myself and becoming a morning person again. Must I try not to allow doctors palliate my illness, but to cure it. Ergo, If I had to take pills for the rest of my life so be it. Only if I am minded so as to improve my health will achieve so. Lastly I would say that I must find a way in order to make my ideas intersect with each other and find that internal peace I seek.
P.S David, if you have got an anecdote regarding bullying, I´d love to hear it. I am still struck with that topic.
And clearly you have a short memory. You did not rise to the challenge of being positive!! When are you going to learn to forget the past and all it seems to have done to you????? When???
ReplyDeleteYou will never see the bright future you can have if you continually look at the past.
Our whole session on Saturday afternoon seems to have had little or no effect.