Do I need to polish up my writing skills once in a while, needless to say that I have thrown my talent away for so long that I don't know how English comes out of my mouth. There is a saying though that is the crux for today's topic: "Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me". In fact that saying applies to my life so much. You see, I never opened up my mouth when I should have risen up against my kin's control. Even so, my coy nature prevented me from speaking my mind at the right time. Hence, allowing my mom under my evil brother's influence to pressure me into making really bad decisions.

 

Was I not prudent at the time. Neither was I prudent regarding speaking out against my mom's decision when she did not allow me to join Christianity at first. Even though, I've become more sagacious as I 've grown older; can I never forget the countless mistakes I made due to keeping my mouth shut. Hence, I rebuke myself for my actions. In fact, have I quarrelled with my mom over my freedom on numerous occasions. Ergo, dare I say, that I must balance out my health first before I attempt any new endeavour. Is it pathetic though? That I am still stuck in this rut of guilt, as it were, even after all the advice I have got. To say nothing of the countless times in which my friends have tried to dissimulate their disillusionment at my regression. Consequently, getting my act together regarding my health is half the equation. The other half though, is more complicated to solve. Have got the assurance so as to get better if I do my best to accomplish it. Nonetheless, when it comes to work, there is no guarantee. 

 

Have I been jobless for a while now. Regardless of how many times I have applied for teaching positions my full-blown depression has taken its toll on me during that time. Should I stitch together all I have learned so far and take a stab at one more try? Perhaps I should. I wish to succeed as much as I wish this blog to gain currency. Thus, will I have to make one last effort so as to attain my goals. By no means though, shall I think at this point that the writing is on the wall. Must I make amends with the past and feel deserving of one last chance. Irrespective of what I have gone through, should I muster up courage in order to dive into a new world. Even if it takes me piggybacking on my previous failures to get more clarity of thinking.

 

Is it over the fact that I wanted people to take pity on me. For now should schedule my priorities as best as possible so as to get the quickest results. What is more, should I put a boundary on people wanting to take up my time for nonsense. To close things out, I will say that once I might have been  hoodwinked by my brother into cheating me out of my trust. Still and all, did I make concessions for him to take over my life. Some folk's opinion might be divided regarding this topic. Be that as it may, I am speaking nothing but the truth. Am I going to round off this post by saying I'll share a video about speaking with confidence. That being said, there is nothing more I'd like to add upon.