I wish I could sway you all  into reading this blog. Nonetheless, do  I tend to beat a dead horse bringing up my past too often. Still though, do I have this belief rooted in my mind that I still have a long way to go as regards to my English knowledge. Truth be told, I can't dissociate English from my private life. Owing to the fact that not only have I ended up gutted as to what I've amounted to so far, but also because I feel guilty about it.

 

Most Peruvian high school students have got their future mapped out before they even finish. Even so, that was not my case. Hence, did I have the right to explore. I knew I was good at English, be that as it may, I had never been properly incentivize so as to learn it accurately. To say nothing of the fact that I was pressured into taking a gap year against my will back in 2010. I remember it as if it were yesterday when I was hustled into a college I didn't even want to get into by my mom, owing to the pressure my brother erroneously put into her thinking it was going to help me in the long run. Albeit, do I not want to go down the same line again.  You know already that this blog easily recapitulates my whole life.

 

Do I have to move on to other topics though. I don't want my audience to peter out. Besides, I don't want to muddy the waters regarding my personal life anymore. Not to mention that still, would I one like to give a run of the mill speech so as to encourage youngsters not to make the decisions I made in my earlier years. However, that will only happen if I end up healing myself by the skin of my teeth. What's more, would I not want to be superseded by another writer more capable of making you understand incomprehensible words. A starting point to solving the problem would be to keep being involved in church-wise activities. That way, I could at least reaffirm my faith by experiencing things first hand. Consequently, please do not take what I say with a pinch of salt. You see, at times, bad thoughts creep into my mind and depress me to the point of giving up.

 

Can things be shaping up better now. Still and all, have not yet got a stable job or anything to aim for. For now, do I depend upon meds and treatment so as to survive. Hence, must I stand firm in my beliefs and not let others push me around anymore. May I not be able to black all my nightmares out. Notwithstanding, what I can do is to stop being subservient to my kin. Irrespective of how many times I've bash them, do I still harbour a grudge towards them. Thus, should I pull together a plan so as to throw myself into as many activities as I can. Not only will that decision bolster my confidence, but it will keep me safe. Let alone the fact that I still remain a wet under the ears Christian who's got to read through the scriptures a lot more. Anyhow, not wanting to spin out this post even more. Must rush off now, due to  having to attend an afternoon service. You see, those things keep me from emotionally snapping at times.