I used to wake up at 5 AM almost every day to write an entry before going to school about two years ago. Now though, things have changed so much. Even though I feel that my knowledge of the English language has deepened,  still can I not put it into practice as much as I wish I could. Not that I get off on Knowledge, but it does matter a lot to me. However, at the early stage of my learning my efforts were stymied by the decisions of third parties. Irrespective of the fact that I have tried to clear the air by talking about this endless topic with my kin, not much progress has been made.

 

Nowadays, do I try to plug myself into  as many English activities as I can so as to find an outlet to forget about the past or express my emotions. Despite the fact that my hindsight is still not 20\20, do I believe to have achieved a better understanding on how to solve every single one of my problems. Consequently, if there was a magical way to rewind my life to the point in which everything started going wrong in my life, perhaps I could fix it. Be that as it may, do I have to be realistic. Many say to me: -Lean on God! As if that was not hard enough already.

 

For instance, let me tell you about something that happened recently. I attended this men fellowship meeting on Saturdays in which we share our thoughts on specific parts of the scriptures. Anyhow, there was this guy among us whom we prayed for due to him having respiratory complications. The following morning which I happened to attend the same church, I heard bad news from the pastor. It turned out that this guy had ended up in the hospital. Thus, one wonders sometimes, what about our prayers?. Where did they go?. Is God even listening to them?. This aforesaid comments are not meant to be scathing whatsoever. Still and all, I have the right as Christian to have  questions about the reliability of our faith.

 

Lastly, I'd say that no matter what. There is always something we are going to fuss over. Call it work, love life, or whatnot. We are not meant to squeal in happiness all the time. Notwithstanding, there has to be a balance. Good moments VS Bad ones. Not to mention that we are not supposed to fly off the handle over every single thing that goes wrong in our lives either. Still though, sometimes I wish I could lower myself to the level of my enemies and give them a lesson. Albeit, the bible says: "Love thy enemy". Something hard for me to understand, but which at least makes sense at some extent. If you're not at war with anyone, you don't have to remain rattled about which move you are going to make next.