Do I have to switch up to a better mind-set. Still and all, is it hard for me still to even remain calm at times of despair. Not to mention that my regrets do not cease to eat into me still. Should I just get back to my routine and forget about this depression that permeates all aspects of my life? Irrespective of how much my kin has hassled me over the years, do I have to learn to forgive for my own sake.

Am I in over my head with worries. Hence, my high priority is my health for now. Moreover, it is useless to say that you can extrapolate my life experiences from what you have read about me so far.

Not a fairy tail, that's for sure. Albeit, I have come to the conclusion that grouching over the past is pointless. As hard as it is for me to accept it, it is indeed useless. One of the things I have been suggested to do for instance, is to pursue an uplifting activity. As a result, I would be able to cope with my depression a much more effective way than how I have been dealing with it so far.

 

May I have taken so many wrong turns thus far. Be that as it may, I am still young. Besides, how do expect to preside over a school class someday in the future if I cannot help myself first? Walking faultless and knowing I have not hurt anyone is priceless. Hence, the need for me to forgive. Moreover, if I expect to make it to the finish line so to speak, I am going to have to do it alive and kicking. May I have been induce to making the wrong decisions in life. That's over now though. Fussing over the past will not magically rewind my life and solve all my issues. As much as I wish for that to happen.

 

Finding a sense of purpose is not easy. Albeit, once you find it is easier to set yourself up for success. Do still need a life-saver though. Be that as it may, it could be faith for all I know. Not that I believe 100% in the esoteric. Notwithstanding, I'll illustrate my thinking. When you twist your ankle, you go to the doctor right?. However, what happens when you have a fight with a relative, were do you go?. That is where faith comes in, sometimes religion helps you out even more than a visit to the shrink. Do not get me wrong though. Both should go together and balance each other out. I can testify to that due to my situation. Although, should I be considering as a first step toward my healing process to dump out those festering thoughts and accomplish peacefulness of mind.  Thus, bringing in positive thoughts is the way to go.