Was I cut to the quick after the a friend of mine's comment . However, is it true that my perfunctory efforts to get better have shown themselves. Not due to not being exactly a person who gives off confidence, but for the stuff I have brought out into the open . Not to mention that, for what I have been able to glean about depression; the busier you are, the better you feel. Notwithstanding, all the tasks I had coordinated for this week I called off.

 

Besides, was my friend right on the button when he said I'd regret not moving on. Have I been succoured by some friends. Albeit, without much improvement. By the way, am I trying for words to slip out of my mouth as naturally as possible. However, still do I not know how to get into the swing of things. Have I obstructed my own progress, clothing my ears against any piece of advice.

 

How can I set things in motion now that I feel like this? I am not sagacious enough to answer that question myself. Since, I constantly cut myself down day after day; I don't know what else I can do now. Brooding over the past has only caused trouble. Hence, accentuating my illness even more. In order for me to set the tone for my recovery, am I going to have to make even more efforts to pull myself out this curse.

 

Lastly, I know no one will come around to my thinking. Albeit, do I have enough reasons for not living it up right now. Like they say: You are your worst critic. That's what happened to me. I was too worried about moping around that I did not look at what was ahead. Consequently, instead of writing lines as a punishment for not seen through it, I have something much worse coming for me. I cannot put my finger on it. Although, have I been driven to do things against my health in the past owing to my emotions.