It's been  a tiring week. However, have I got  a second wind due to my desire to get better. All my chances to succeed rest on how quickly I ride out this depression. Be that as it may, it flusters me that I oversleep sometimes due to the pills I'm taking. Anyhow, is it time to sing a different tune.

For now, what I have left to do is to put aside my feelings and look out not only for my interests, but also for my kin's.

 

Even though I have been conducting myself above average this week, still did I had setbacks.

Have I flipped my lid for instance, due to having slept in. Did I have plans today, and muttered complaints under my breath. Still and all, on the flip side of the coin, I got to have a good sleep.

Have I moved up my lazy days by not following through with all my tasks. Albeit, it is justifiable due to my mom's inability to understand I did not need to take that many pills last night.

 

Enough about me, I think as I had delineated the characters of a play through my posts. Me being behind the ball, and my kin being the bad guys who caused it. However I want to categorize them, still do I have a long way to go recovering from this depression. My warped thinking tells me there is no hope and that I have fallen into a pit of quicksand. On the contrary, my heart tells me I should move on and forget about the past. Should I have to get rid of my bad thoughts such as a fan that blows water off your car in a car-wash.

 

How can I sanctify the practice of waking up early once more in my life. Since I got caught up in the past a long time ago, it is hard for me to ride out that issue. Is there an interplay and tag of war between good and evil within me. Hence should a posit routinary exercise as a solution for my problem. Each time a person exercises, their brain secretes serotonin. Thus raising their spirits automatically. In fact exercise would also prevent my nervousness from coming through. Anyhow, is it time for me to dive in and renew myself through the power of God. It gives me chill bumps to even  mention him to be honest.