I am a few days away from starting work  and yet my inscrutable face says it all. It seems as though I had incur the wrath of destiny by failing to decide wisely about my future back in my teenage years. However bad things are, the decisions others have made for me and the one's I did not make have taken their toll on my health.

 

Truth be told, I feel  a bit long in the tooth to have learned English by the end of my teenage  years and not the other way around. Not to mention that I did not even master up until recently. Oftentimes, you have to  sit on the fence regarding making an important decision. Even so, when others decide for you. Such as what happened in my case, you can end up in serious trouble.

 

Am I convinced that if I had been left to my own devices when I was younger, I would have been a lot more successful. be that as it may, there is not much I can do now, but to look forward.  Irrespective of how much I would like sugar-coating my situation, I cannot. There is something that prevents me from doing so. No matter how much it would help me to pluck the bad memories out of my mind. It does not seem humanly possible.

 

To close things out, I would say that hope springs eternal. Regardless of how unlikely it seems for me so as to mend my situation. Call me a "Drama queen", but do I remain lost in my own mind oftentimes trying to imagine a better world in which I live. Coughing up the truth is as hard as remembering how many people have foisted their beliefs and decisions on me. Let alone the fact that my lack of a cut-throat spirit has always been a disadvantage for me too. As longs as bad thoughts keep popping up in my mind, I have something to worry about.