When negative thoughts take over and cloud your mind, what should you do?  Countless times have I wondered that. Still and all, what I know is that it is definitely hard for me to dump out nasty thoughts. To be honest I have not exactly have sown the seeds for success. However, has it been  really hard for me to even get a job opportunity lately. Not to mention the grudges I have been nursing for years against my kin.  One thing is for sure though. Nowadays, I do not care about hating them anymore.

 

Might I have been kicked to the curve countless times by the people who ran the show in each occasion due to my insecurity. Be that as it may, I myself have wasted some chances due to fear.

Have I got detoured by the grudges I was holding against those who hurt me, not to mention my fantasies about time travel. Not that I have visions or anything, but daydreaming about the supernatural has also prevented me from getting over my past problems.

 

Hoping this is not my last post by any means, do I try to hang in there with all my might. Notwithstanding, I wonder what the point of living is. If I never get to live out my fantasies, then I will have a miserable existence. To say nothing of the fact that thoughts about the mistreatment I got from my relatives still ruffle me up. Should I find something that fills me up then? Well with low income and a negative mind-set there is not much I can do.

 

They say that if you want something, you have to make a little noise. Amen to that. I concur 100 % with that aforesaid statement. Problem is I never complained about the things I did not like back as a child. Hence, the reason why my kin took advantage of me in so many ways. In review, I have little left to do besides concentrating on my new job and avoiding to fester even more resentment. That is the only way I can get back on board with my former activities.

 

PS. Next time I'll try not to come up with yet another rigmarole