This dilettante writer has gone through a lot. I know gritting your teeth and moving on after a terrible experience is really hard. Considering the fact that a few moments of sorrow are enshrined in my personal history. Anyhow, many steps gotta be taken to ameliorate my emotional state. Besides, I didn`t have to cozy up to anyone to remain gritty. I flare up every time I try to blank out an unpleasant episode from my past. Moreover, I`ve always thrived on writing; something that has been a lifeline to me. However, I`ve never really been discovered. Many a time have I wanted to emanate confidence as a result of feeling productive. Though, til this day not a single folk has given me the chance to shine. Success is something cumulative. If you wanna become a luminary, you have to start  working on all cylinders. No more eye-openers do I need to realize life is shit for some. Maybe I feel that way cause I only parrot those encouraging phrases from all those motivational videos I watch Well, I haven`t been thrown a lifeline either. After having been under my overbearing brother`s thumb for many years, I feel tired now. If only a sermon could take away the pain I`ve got in me right now. Though, that will be impossible. The ties of kinship can`t be broken. What can be broken though, is the trust towards those calculating individuals you thought you knew. I´ll look for ways to hasten my recovery. Some rude comments can be passed over, but actions that will prejudice your career path cannot. OK, I`ll get back to that topic later. Also, I`ll try not to let anything get me down today. I gotta tie up some loose ends and don`t let them tie me down. That`s why I need to set up a schedule. Hoping this essay is well set out , I´ll look for ways to better provide fine pieces of work. At times, I don´t know how to compose myself. Barely do I find the strength to bear up.  Regardless of how many times I`ve been to the lion´s den, still do I think something will compensate for the time I lost. To round out this writing , I promise next time I will come up with something that will dumbfound you. Even so, it may take some time for me to be jubilant again. Depression won`t rout me, it´ll just make me smarter.