Apropos what I am doing right now, there is not much to say. I would be able to identify the number of people who care about me on the spot. Howbeit, there is no way in which I can live up to my teachers´ expectation once again if I do not wake up now. Have I been talking about my personal life lately. Is just that as I have also said before, this site is the only means of catharsis I can use not to get crazy. Further, I will say that I still do not know if I will get the chance to become a reverent teacher in the future. Perhaps the civilities my friends used to make me feel better should have been insults. In fact, this period of emotional upheaval I am going through has been caused by my own actions. Anyhow, I have to find a way to strike a balance between my studies and my not yet found gigs once more. Instead of grappling to find a solution to my problems I should just act. By the way, it is been a long time since my last run. Maybe exercising again will help my mind to revitalize. Since my last acts have not exactly been shrewd, who knows what some fresh are can do for my health?. Until now, everyone has told me not to fuss around and start doing my school work. To be honest, I considered my mind to be exactly comparable to a tabula rasa. Moreover, my behavior my be  hard to apprehend. Still and all, I would be disingenuous from me to say that I have never felt better than others. Now though, I just want to earn back some self-respect. It must not be easy for anyone to confront their fears. Nonetheless, in my case it seems that I have let my emotions control me. Do I just want to be able to wake up one day and be able to prink myself one more time in front of the mirror without worrying about a little rash I have got for instance.  It is hard to resume my duties when I know I have been slacking off. The myopia I have to see the consequences of my actions could be my undoing. Should I start worrying about my own welfare once in for all. Anyway, If I were to be pretested on English advanced grammar I would surely fail. Since I have been wasting my time doing irrational things such as not attending my English classes. It seems as if my studies had become the bottommost though in my mind. Lastly,  in lieu of trying to reconstruct my bumbling acts, I should avoid voting every decision I make a disaster and move on.