What has been crimping my former performance as a good student is my attitude. Even so, there are people who have helped me realize how many opportunities I was missing out on. It is indeed hard for me to man up. Despite the fact that I am almost twenty two, I have been act as if I were five. I have always coveted the chance to get to have a peaceful and meaningful life. Be that as it may, only am I going to get to have it if I move on. I just cannot believe how supportive my teachers and friends are at times. Oftentimes, I think I should have gotten slapped by one of them so as to wake up. Anyhow, no matter how much I blow it, my fingers are always eager to get singed to write something new. I am sure that by now rumours at school that I have been turning myself in some sort of slowpoke are circulating at school. I guess that the solution to my problems will be both steeping myself in English once more and finally organizing my tasks. In fact, I hung my head in shame thinking how disappointed some of my teachers may be with me. Perhaps the fact that my mood keeps alternating between bliss and despair means I am crazy. The truth is my irresponsibility is what has caused me to feel this anxious. Besides, no matter how much I would like to wake up tomorrow and be in the past again. The odds of the aforesaid wish to happen are zero against a million. Facing up to your responsibilities is hard to do. Nonetheless, sooner or later I am going to have to do it.  Am I responsible for having wasted my time lately and avoiding school. Not to mention that I was also absenting myself from my gigs. It is unbelievable how easy it is to crumple up  and throw out what you have build up in your life as if it were a dirty paper overnight. Still and all, to reverse that situation is not as easy. I just hope it is not too late to reverse my situation and stop being a gutless individual who relies so much on his family to feel safe.

Lastly, I will end this post with the idiom: ¨If you have nothing to hide you have nothing to fear¨ Perhaps, that explains why I had been skipping classes...