Now that I have had a change of air, everything seems more confusing.  Once again, I can tell you that your past mistakes can catch up with you in no time. May I be down and out right now, be that as it may, still do have a little hope. Even though I know what it takes to ameliorate my situation, I am scared. That is why I am a fan of time travel, you have no idea how much I dream of the day in which I can rewind my life to my happy high school days. My post may be full of commonplaces. Let me tell you though, this blog is the only space in which I can vent. Perhaps doubts nag me. Nonetheless, the reason for this is because I do not take action. Was I used to being the student who would vie with his peers for the best grades, especially in English courses. You may think that all I ever do is to grumble about things. Should I do something to stem my streak of failures. Notwithstanding, I have prostrated myself by my own inactivity.The conjunction of failures I have experienced have led myself to feel the way I do now. Could I have exaggerated earlier when I said I was down and out. Despite the fact that I am not exactly a derelict, I am close to becoming one if do not open my eyes to reality. Whether or not my actions had or had not been wise enough for a 21 year old, I know my leaden heart will liven up. I will muddle through somehow. As I said before, if I ever get the chance to do something meaningful with myself, I hope it is a decent job that does not cause me trouble. By the way, still can I not understand how I got better after being run over right away, and I am not able to react now. Still do I have to focus on the feasible goals I can achieve. For now, I am overtly expressing myself on this blog. Moreover, do I know I have not left no stone unturned to achieve what I want to. Only if I assert myself, will  I be able carve out a career in education. Maybe a good idea will be to set up my schedule and finally  starting to work my rear off. To sign off this letter, I will say that a jaundiced attitude can always be changed by a smile and willingness to progress. Sometimes your behaviour is the only roadblock between you and success. Now, by your leave, I must retire to do my homework. Will I have to stop leaving my books interleaved with bookmarks obviously unread.