Now that I have been pondering over what to do next, do I realize I cannot escape from my duties. The only thing I have to do for now is going to school. Thus, if I were responsible enough, there would be no problem for me whatsoever. Still and all, it is also true that I have been prevented from my kin to make decisions that would have benefited me a lot more. Getting back to the topic of whether or not I should leave college. I am positive I would regret it on the spot. This is the only thing I have to fall back on. Thus, it does not make sense not to finish my program. I have let my situation get out hand. Albeit, I could say that I am making slow progress. Everyone gets rejected once or twice in their lives. Hence, thinking that because for instance you did not get your desired job in the past, you will not get it now. In fact that happened to me. My folks trivialized my worries and never took action to get me the help I needed. Nonetheless, it is also true that I have always been procrastinating doing one thing or another. Consequently, I rede you take action without thinking it twice if you do not want to end up like me. Have my decisions led to glaring errors many times. Notwithstanding, still do I believe I can become a repository of ESL. Be that as it may, it will take me a lot longer than I expected. Perhaps, I should start by moderating my behavior with some exercising. Not only will it boost my confidence, it will make me regain that control I had over my nerves. Do I have to detoxify my mind from all the bullshit I have in it. Besides, my fund of knowledge had been diminishing because I wanted it to. Do I still think I should have been less acquiescent with my brother back in Canada. Even though that episode is in the past, my past mistakes still haunt me. Further, I must say  I would not redact a single word from this blog. What is more, I meant to write them all. By the way, there is nothing more refreshing  than moving out of your comfort zone. In my case for example, have I conformed to letting my insecurities take the best out of me. To be honest, it it is normal for me to abhor my actions oftentimes. Deepening my knowledge will not be easy. Even though I have not exactly led a life of virtue, I got to a point in my life in which I was feeling good with myself. In lieu of perpending what I want to do with my life, I should stop procrastinating. It is of utmost importance that I retrieve my confidence as soon as possible. Moreover, it would be congruent to do what I write down here. Not only do I have to practice what I preach, but also I must change to a higher orbit. Anyhow, I will take powder now.