God helps those who help themselves. However, I had not been doing my part. Whether or not I gear up for the new challenges ahead is up to me. I was onto a good thing with my perseverance. Nonetheless, my stress screwed me up. If I were to effect a cure for my depression, I would say that only I have the key to stand up and move on. For some reason I lost my confidence. Well, I have to get it back. Maybe I had been fettered by  my family´s control. Perhaps they did overstep their authority. Notwithstanding, not only am I not letting go of the past, but also I am hurting myself. A friend of mine told me about a therapy that consisted on writing down negative stuff that bothers you on a paper. The thing is that ripping that paper up  relieves your anxiety. Nonetheless I did not listen to her. I regret that now. Be that as it may, just like bones fuse together as they heal, one can also get better from any situation. I cannot go through life effecting a calmness I do not feel. I also learned that bearing rancour or a grudge against somebody  damages the soul. May I have been dissipating my time. Though, it is never to late to learn new things. My emotions started out veering between fear and anger this week. I realized that being pugnacious towards my folks was not the answer. I have been a martyr to my nerves for so long. Even though we cannot lump all people´s personalities together, we all share the same weaknesses. It is just that some overcome them much faster than others. Crisis should bring out the best in me and not the opposite. If I ever want to gain ground, I am going to learn to behave. Only now do I grasp the importance of cooperation. I just have to stop being racked with guilt and carry on. My willingness to succeed cannot collapse. Only because my temper slipped out of gear one time does not mean I should give up. No matter how many chances I let slip in the past. There are so much more waiting for me. Have I not lost my grip, I just got a little confused. What happened to me can only be pinned down as a mild depression. I would beseech a genie to grant me my ultimate wish. Since the do not exist though. I will just keep going. This taciturn boy has decided not to spin out his worries any longer. Any feeling of gloom can evanesce with a little optimism.