If I had to adumbrate my life in the past few days, I would say the following: ¨Stupidity¨. Have I once again fallen into an unnecessary depression. If only I could just expunge my bad experiences out of my mind once in for all. Nonetheless, that is not possible. It seems as if my sense of reality had been in abeyance. At times, I end up being fazed and disconcerted by my own actions. Pulling a wry face at my action won´t help me. Besides , I never really swept away my doubts and insecurities. It has always been hard for me to give the ones who have hurt me a piece of my mind. Not to mention that I have been wasting my time pondering about my past once more instead of taking care of my duties. Further, everyone meets problems. Nonetheless, I tend to create more than the one I usually have. Have I though many times about the fact of making a wish and getting rid of all of my problems. Notwithstanding, I know that is not possible. I am not exercised about my future anymore. Due to the fact that I know I do not have one. Would I have wanted to conduct myself properly in each situation. However,  since I had a hard time during vacation, I neglected to make good use of my time. Ergo, I did not prepare before starting this semester. Always did I wanted to boast a supreme confidence. Unfortunately, I never had it. My unbroken silence around others will be my undoing. I was going to sacrifice my time on the altar of finishing my program on this college. Be that as it may, have I already screwed it up. I would suit me right to imagine that all I am experiencing right now is a nightmare. Further, being susceptible does not help either. As much as I would like to cultivate my confidence, do I know it is a little late. Despite the fact that my hopes have crumbled away, still am I 21 and I have to allow my mind to sheer away from the memories I do not want to remember. Instead of acting in a self'-deprecating way, I should be  looking for multifarious options to recover. If you were to benchmark my school work against my classmates´you´d be disappointed. I hope that subsequent to this writing I finally snap out of it.