Have I made capital of my friendship with my  ESL teacher friends? Not at all. Maybe, due to the fact that I mainly have contacted them through Facebook. Have I got to chat with a friend until I got it out of my system. No I did not. By the time I talked to my best friend I done so with my folks. Being a blogger invests me with a air of gloom. Besides, I have studying as an uppermost task. Ergo, sometimes I stress myself out during vacation. Even though suicidal thoughts still hang over me,  I manage to generate good ideas. When I started out this blog, it was meant to give advice. Not to tell you my melodramas. However, due to the fact that I tend to seclude myself too much at times and that I have had no motivation to drive me on recently, indeed have I let depression take the best of me. They say that fortune favours the brave; nonetheless, I have been more worried about dragging up my past each time I could. Had I been targeting my criticism at my kin so much, that I was going to have to beg to have a prison sentence for psychological abuse remitted. Anyhow, do I know I should invest my time better. School is about to start and should leave the past behind. I do not want  to hear from someone: ¨I hate to break it to you bro, but you killed your mom with your constant nagging¨. You see, she is the one I am living with now, and I have been driving her nuts. Did I mention that I come from a dysfunctional family and I never had it hammered into me that I should never give up?. Well, that counts too. Perhaps I tend to pile on drama. Perhaps, I have been piling on pounds too due to not having excercised for a while now. Despite having people heap praise on me during my toughest times, I seem not to believe it. Have I been wasting my time invoking angels in my dreams instead of focusing on my present. Further, I know it takes constancy to get through school. That is why I cannot keep feeling sorry for myself. If I ever want to be to be touted as an exemplary teacher by my professors, I will have to do my part.