It doesn´t matter how much time passes by, I cannot evade my responsibilities.  Whether I want it or not I need to straighten myself out. Not only that it seems as if I needed to face my evil self down. To be honest, I have done my part to get better. Even though I had been going through an economic upheaval, there was no reason for me to behave the way I did. Getting apoplectic at my past won´t change a thing. If I do not want to end up as an emaciated folk, I will have to forget about my past. After being buffeted by my own impulsiveness, I have realized I have to think things through I like I used to do before. Looking back at how I handled my recent problems dismayes me. Nonetheless, none of those mistakes is irreparable. Besides, I was even considering suicide as the only avenue to relieve my pain. Notwithstanding, it seems stupid now that I think about the fact that I hurt myself by acting so hastily. I myself shattered my self-confidence. Ergo, the only way to get it back and alleviate my anxiety  is to look forward. Things didn´t go my way not due to mischance, I know that now. Anyhow, I cannot shelve any other plan I already have. Do I need to get back  to doing the things that entranced me the most. However, I need to nurse myself back to health first. Have I got advice of the highest utility, I just have to take action. It is hard to deprecate my own actions. Be that as it may, there are rules to go by and steps you must go through to achieve success. Remember, if you do not deal with your past problems accurately, they can catch up with you.