I know I have to turn over a new leaf. Just like a bus disgorges people each stop, I have to get rid of all the bullshit I have in my head. Now that I think back to the things I have done, I realize how foolish I had been. Trying to ascertain why I behaved the way I did in the past is not going to change it. One example will suffice to illustrate my point. Last Monday, I had an argument with an annoying aunt who happened to be visiting my mom that day. Instead of confronting the problem, I ran away. I ended up in a far away cafe playing around with my phone. After that I tried unsuccessfully to talk to some tourists. Then, I went over to my dad´s to find out that his car was braking down. Even so, I accompanied him to the repair shop. Despite the fact that I was close to home, I decided to hang with him a little more. When I finally got back home I was I scourged by my conscience. It must have been due to the fact that I was not thinking straight. Some bad things did I do such as blaming my aunt on the phone for the bad day I had had. Was I having a lump in my throat for no reason. The only reason for things going wrong that day was my inability to keep my temper. Problems should bring out the best in me instead of the worse. I can keep beating myself up over what happened or I can move on. My own attitude set back my progress. Ergo, I recommend you nip your issues in the bad in order to avoid what I did. Anyhow, getting rid of my shyness once again is one of the things I must do.  Breezing in on a stranger and saying hi may not be as hard as I thought it was. I should have got raked over the coals for my actions. Nonetheless, I got away with my act of crass stupidity. It is up to me whether or not I want to keep being a wishy-washy person. Not only should I be able to spark up conversations with new people, but also I must keep looking for chances. Some companies may reserve the right to refuse admission. Notwithstanding, if I keep thinking negatively I will not get a new job. Maybe I have a breadth of reading. Be that as it may, I may forget all I know if I do not put it into practice. In due time will I achieve my goals. For now, I will have to organize my time as well as I put money aside for a rainy day. Not only must the way I act be a badge of confidence for me, but also my accomplishments.