Should I ideate a plan to calm myself down. Overpowering my bad thoughts is not easy for me. Have I let my private life impinge on my school duties. Nonetheless, am I trying not to draw back from staying at school. However hard it may be to do so, it is the only chance I still have to make something out of myself.  You see one of the problems I have with my English for instance, is that I did not learn it by osmosis. Instead, I studied a lot in order to improve all my skills. My social anxiety has prevented me from practicing my English with lots of English speakers. Sure, I do have a few American friends. However, I do not get to see them that much. Besides, I neglected to mention the fact that I used to hero-worship my bossy brother and that he disappointed me in a way for instance. Notwithstanding, by bearing a grudge against him am I only going to get sicker. Some bad experiences we go through may be indelible. Be that as it may, it is up to us whether or not to put them aside. It is imperative that I seek help. Being uncaring about my own affairs will only make me feel worse. Have I tried to reassure myself many times. Despite the fact that the program I am taking at school does not cater for all my needs, still do I think that it is better than doing nothing. There is a few things I have left to do: Deploy the little resources I have got, stop expostulating on my family´s shortcomings and look for one more kindred spirit,